The son is drowning in the flood
Oh friends. It has just been one problem after another around here. I haven't updated because my hard drive crashed a few days ago out of nowhere. The library hasn't been open so I haven't had any way to go on the internet at all - I'm sure of all people, you guys will be able to understand the magnitude of that situation. Thankfully I ordered another and it came today, but I am so technologically inept I am terrified that when I try to install it (yes, they make you do this yourself) I will just end up breaking it and having to go without a computer forever because there's no way my dad will spend another $120 on a third hard drive just because I'm an idiot. So yeah, pray for me.
Today is the first day of class and I feel like ass. My stomach has been inexplicably uneasy for several days, and I've fallen into this likewise inexplicable and extremely sudden depression. Also, I am having trouble sleeping and can't stay asleep for more than a few hours at a time, mostly due to these real disturbing dreams I've been having, at least half of which end with me waking up because I'm about to be murdered. This cannot be a good thing.
I don't know how things are going with Walker. I don't even really want to talk about it right now, or anything, which I'm sure is contributing to the bad mood because I won't tell anybody what's going on with me. I hate that I get like that when I'm depressed.
So I've missed about a month of everyone's entries. I will try my best to catch up and seeing as I'm becoming so antisocial I won't even answer my phone maybe I will do a good job, but I can't make any promises.
I don't know if I ever wrote down what classes I'm taking this semester, but I'm actually kinda psyched - Music: Rock Era, American Lit after 1900, Fiction Workshop, and Metafiction/Metadrama. Only 4 classes, and they all seem fun. Even if they're not, by God at least they will get my mind off of things.
This probably doesn't matter, but for some reason LJ is saying its 5:43pm. It's not. It's 10:43am. So yeah.
Until (hopefully) tonight -
Today is the first day of class and I feel like ass. My stomach has been inexplicably uneasy for several days, and I've fallen into this likewise inexplicable and extremely sudden depression. Also, I am having trouble sleeping and can't stay asleep for more than a few hours at a time, mostly due to these real disturbing dreams I've been having, at least half of which end with me waking up because I'm about to be murdered. This cannot be a good thing.
I don't know how things are going with Walker. I don't even really want to talk about it right now, or anything, which I'm sure is contributing to the bad mood because I won't tell anybody what's going on with me. I hate that I get like that when I'm depressed.
So I've missed about a month of everyone's entries. I will try my best to catch up and seeing as I'm becoming so antisocial I won't even answer my phone maybe I will do a good job, but I can't make any promises.
I don't know if I ever wrote down what classes I'm taking this semester, but I'm actually kinda psyched - Music: Rock Era, American Lit after 1900, Fiction Workshop, and Metafiction/Metadrama. Only 4 classes, and they all seem fun. Even if they're not, by God at least they will get my mind off of things.
This probably doesn't matter, but for some reason LJ is saying its 5:43pm. It's not. It's 10:43am. So yeah.
Until (hopefully) tonight -