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I feel hopeless right now.
It's nothing really in particular, just bills and no money because of no business and trying to deal with all of Josh's problems and the fury over not being able to smoke a bowl to make this all a little more manageable. But truly, right now I just feel like life is just a whole lot of work and the moments of pleasure aren't enough to make it worthwhile. I wanna talk to somebody, my mom or my dad or Dani or somebody, but I feel like all I would do is just sit there and cry and I'm wearing a whole lot of black eye makeup right now so that would be a terrible idea.
It's nothing really in particular, just bills and no money because of no business and trying to deal with all of Josh's problems and the fury over not being able to smoke a bowl to make this all a little more manageable. But truly, right now I just feel like life is just a whole lot of work and the moments of pleasure aren't enough to make it worthwhile. I wanna talk to somebody, my mom or my dad or Dani or somebody, but I feel like all I would do is just sit there and cry and I'm wearing a whole lot of black eye makeup right now so that would be a terrible idea.