lately

[katkills]

i miss scott
i miss neko
i miss my old life
i should have never left austin
i have lost all of the motivation i had at the end of the last semester. so far ive missed both of the first two days of classes and i dont care. im supposed to be starting neuro research with my favorite professor and i dont care. i was offered research from another neuro professor and i dont care. i dont want to go to school. i dont want to go to work. i just want to move back to austin and go back to my old life.
how pathetic.

its funny how you can be with someone for almost 3 years and feel like you never really knew them. together three years and there is no progression in the relationship. never even the offering of a key to his apartment; even though he had one to yours.
sometimes i wonder if the real problem was that im not kelley. he's still not over her and its obvious. sucks

i think what sucks the most is that all the good memories are making me sad. but at the same time there are bad ones that made me sad while we were together. i guess you cant really win.
it will all be over soon enough and ill move on. three years is a long time.