It's been a long week...

[katisking]

I started a new class this week. It's a general education class on communication. I thought it would be easy, and material wise, it's an easy class. But I hate sitting in the lectures for the class. The teacher wants to tell me every story about his life (much like someone else that I know...) and all the freshman have to assert their idiotic opinions at any chance they get. I think I find the class so unbearable because you have to listen to all the irrelevant material to get to small bits of relevant information. For a professor on communication, I feel that the professor I have is terrible a rhetorician.

I am tired of listening to other people. I am especially tired of listening to other people TELL me things. And I am tired of being heard, but not listened to in a proper manner. I am tired of being ignored. I am tired of people not listening to what I say and responding like they mean it. I am tired of being taken advantage of by those who think that I'm a doormat for their emotions. And most of all, I'm tired of being lonely while everyone else gets to go about living their happy lives.

I am tired of boys who are too occupied to notice me. I am tired of feeling ugly. I am tired of feeling unnoticeable.

I don't want to be in school anymore. I'm tired of school. I am tired of my friends. I am tired of my old, stagnant life. I want to be far, far away from here.