Life is...not so exciting.
Nothing all that exciting has happened lately. I put almost no effort into finding a second job. I applied at hastings and am going to be starting sometime soon. Still have to take the drug test and fill out all the paper work. Even though I'm excited to be earning extra cash. I'm totally depressed at the thought that I will be working ALL the time. I know I used to do it and it didn't bother me that bad, but I've been totally pampered with getting off at 4pm everyday and having weekends to do nothing. I'm not saying my job is super easy and that I'm a slacker, I do work hard. But when I think of all the late nights and early mornings I have ahead of me...my new car better be worth it.
The job is sucking right now. My kids have been little punks lately and I'm losing one of my group partners on friday. Turnover at that place just sucks. Not only does it effect the way I run my group but it effects the kids and then I have to deal with it. People may think it's not that big of a deal, but it's a big deal to me. I get used to having certain people work with me and then one of them leaves and I have wait around for the new person to get settled and it just sucks so much. I feel bad having this "its easier to do it myself" attitude toward all the activities and stuff that we do in the room but when it comes down to it I get sick and tired of establishing a routine just to have it screwed up every two months. Don't get me wrong there are a lot of great things about FSGC, I truly think it's a great place to work. But like every job it has it's downsides and constantly changing group leaders seems to be one of them. Part of me feels like everyone else gets to keep their partner for more than 3 months and I never do. I like working preschool age, but a big part of me wants to go back to doing the OZ age group SO bad. Part of me is almost willing to look into getting a position back at frazier b even though it would be a big pay cut for me. At least $2.50 less.
This is why I haven't posted cause I really don't have anything nice to say. Things with Joe are normal. Mema is not doing any better and she seems to get a little worse every week. I feel terrible not spending more time with her but it is very hard to be around her and keep my emotions in check. I can't cry around her cause that will make her upset and I don't want to do that. Plus whenever I'm there she barely talks anyway let alone recognizes I'm even there.
Oh well life goes on. Maybe once school starts up the job won't suck so much, oh wait yes it will cause then I'll lose another group partner because he's going back to school, yay.
The job is sucking right now. My kids have been little punks lately and I'm losing one of my group partners on friday. Turnover at that place just sucks. Not only does it effect the way I run my group but it effects the kids and then I have to deal with it. People may think it's not that big of a deal, but it's a big deal to me. I get used to having certain people work with me and then one of them leaves and I have wait around for the new person to get settled and it just sucks so much. I feel bad having this "its easier to do it myself" attitude toward all the activities and stuff that we do in the room but when it comes down to it I get sick and tired of establishing a routine just to have it screwed up every two months. Don't get me wrong there are a lot of great things about FSGC, I truly think it's a great place to work. But like every job it has it's downsides and constantly changing group leaders seems to be one of them. Part of me feels like everyone else gets to keep their partner for more than 3 months and I never do. I like working preschool age, but a big part of me wants to go back to doing the OZ age group SO bad. Part of me is almost willing to look into getting a position back at frazier b even though it would be a big pay cut for me. At least $2.50 less.
This is why I haven't posted cause I really don't have anything nice to say. Things with Joe are normal. Mema is not doing any better and she seems to get a little worse every week. I feel terrible not spending more time with her but it is very hard to be around her and keep my emotions in check. I can't cry around her cause that will make her upset and I don't want to do that. Plus whenever I'm there she barely talks anyway let alone recognizes I'm even there.
Oh well life goes on. Maybe once school starts up the job won't suck so much, oh wait yes it will cause then I'll lose another group partner because he's going back to school, yay.