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10.30 am:
I am in the strangest melancholy mood. I don’t know why. I guess it’s the weather. It is so grey and dark outside how it can only get here in Germany (yes, Mic, you’re right. The light here IS different). I have lit candles all over my room to fight the grey dullness and to get some kind of warm light. It its 10.30 in the morning but the greyness makes it feel like late afternoon. I am listening to sad classical music (Mendelssohn - Symphony No 5 D major, Andante) which probably doesn’t help very much to brighten up my mood but the piece is beautiful. I want to curl up on the couch with S. Daydream. Do nothing. Tea. Candles. An occasional walk with Ben. Maybe a movie (LotR - The extended versions!). Christmas break, why are you still so far away?
I have so much homework to do…. *sigh* It is Monday morning and I wish it were Friday. I did get some work done over the weekend but in relation to what is left it feels insignificant. I shouldn’t complain. There are other people who are in a much, much worse situation than I am. I just feel like all I did the past weeks was work. I have neglected friends, especially those living farer away (hi, M. (!), A., L. and J.).
I am so looking forward to break.
K.
- later that same day -
I am a “head person”. When I have to make a decision I think it through and I try to be reasonable and responsible (vernünftig …. oh, so verflixt vernünftig). Today my head and my heart were batteling. My heart wanted one thing but my head objected. “Nono, you won’t just stop by to say hello. You’ll stay longer. But you can’t, you have too much homework”. Of course I ended up at home at my desk - my head won.
I am in the strangest melancholy mood. I don’t know why. I guess it’s the weather. It is so grey and dark outside how it can only get here in Germany (yes, Mic, you’re right. The light here IS different). I have lit candles all over my room to fight the grey dullness and to get some kind of warm light. It its 10.30 in the morning but the greyness makes it feel like late afternoon. I am listening to sad classical music (Mendelssohn - Symphony No 5 D major, Andante) which probably doesn’t help very much to brighten up my mood but the piece is beautiful. I want to curl up on the couch with S. Daydream. Do nothing. Tea. Candles. An occasional walk with Ben. Maybe a movie (LotR - The extended versions!). Christmas break, why are you still so far away?
I have so much homework to do…. *sigh* It is Monday morning and I wish it were Friday. I did get some work done over the weekend but in relation to what is left it feels insignificant. I shouldn’t complain. There are other people who are in a much, much worse situation than I am. I just feel like all I did the past weeks was work. I have neglected friends, especially those living farer away (hi, M. (!), A., L. and J.).
I am so looking forward to break.
K.
- later that same day -
I am a “head person”. When I have to make a decision I think it through and I try to be reasonable and responsible (vernünftig …. oh, so verflixt vernünftig). Today my head and my heart were batteling. My heart wanted one thing but my head objected. “Nono, you won’t just stop by to say hello. You’ll stay longer. But you can’t, you have too much homework”. Of course I ended up at home at my desk - my head won.