It's your lover on the television screen
I'll be honest.
I tried to find reasons why I couldn't be with you. I tried to think of all the reasons why it didn't make sense and why it would never work and how it would ultimately all crumble down in the end. I only came up with one reason: I'd do something to make it not make sense and I'd be the one to do something to make it just not work. I realized that with the exception of one or two relationships, it was always me. I was always the one sabotaging the relationship and it was always my fault.
I don't want that to happen with you.
More honesty. I've done my fair share of bitching about you to my friends. I'm forever frustrated with you and I always feel the need to vent about it to someone because I can't be constantly yelling at you, I do it enough as it is. But I realized today that that's what I love about you. I can't figure you out and you never explain it to me. I hate that but I love it because I've never wanted the answers as much as I do with you. And I also hate how you always put me in my place. But again, I love it because you're the only one who ever does that. I get away with far too much. But I also love how you always let me win even when I'm wrong.
You're right. I do want to argue about how perfect we are for each other. We're complete opposites and all we do is fight. But in a way, I really don't want to argue. I like the idea, I really do. I want so badly, as much as I always protest, for someone to hold me back and for someone to make me feel something deep and something that no one can touch. I want you to do that.
I'm sorry for anything I've said before. I'm even more sorry for anything I've done. It took me until today to see what I did and didn't want. I want you. That's the only thing that's making sense to me right now.
I tried to find reasons why I couldn't be with you. I tried to think of all the reasons why it didn't make sense and why it would never work and how it would ultimately all crumble down in the end. I only came up with one reason: I'd do something to make it not make sense and I'd be the one to do something to make it just not work. I realized that with the exception of one or two relationships, it was always me. I was always the one sabotaging the relationship and it was always my fault.
I don't want that to happen with you.
More honesty. I've done my fair share of bitching about you to my friends. I'm forever frustrated with you and I always feel the need to vent about it to someone because I can't be constantly yelling at you, I do it enough as it is. But I realized today that that's what I love about you. I can't figure you out and you never explain it to me. I hate that but I love it because I've never wanted the answers as much as I do with you. And I also hate how you always put me in my place. But again, I love it because you're the only one who ever does that. I get away with far too much. But I also love how you always let me win even when I'm wrong.
You're right. I do want to argue about how perfect we are for each other. We're complete opposites and all we do is fight. But in a way, I really don't want to argue. I like the idea, I really do. I want so badly, as much as I always protest, for someone to hold me back and for someone to make me feel something deep and something that no one can touch. I want you to do that.
I'm sorry for anything I've said before. I'm even more sorry for anything I've done. It took me until today to see what I did and didn't want. I want you. That's the only thing that's making sense to me right now.