Oh, the drama
So, basically this week has totally and completely sucked...my emotions have gone from insanely happy to confused and sad and depressed...i feel like i'm on a roller coaster and it's never going to stop...my life is spinning out of control and i don't know what to do...i've gotten advice from various sources about how to solve my problem, but mainly i wish none of this had happened in the first place...that whole saying "ignorance is bliss" is most def one of my favorite sayings...sometimes, well with me pretty much all the time, it would be better if i hadn't known some random bit of information that will now preceed to haunt me...well, this goes to show that nothing in life is perfect...you may be having a really great day or a really great week and then there's always that something that will bring it to a screeching halt...i'm not trying to blame anyone because really this just has to do with me and how i'm an insanely emotional person and tend to blow things out of proportion and take things too seriously...i mean when someone tells you "oh just forget about what i said" it's not important...most people would be like "ok" and that would be that...but not me apparently...i for some reason am cursed with the inability to forget things that strongly affect me, especially emotionally...So, basically i'm at a point in my life where i feel really lost and almost trapped...i feel torn between friends...and i feel like this year there has been sooo much tension between friends and i feel like, things can never be the way they used to be...and i totally hate that feeling...i wish i could go back in time and fix everything, but i know i can't...so my current solution is to do the best with the time given to me...that whole "carpe diem" concept...seize the day...hopefully tomorrow the sun will come up and everything will be ok, but if that doesn't happen, which what are the odds that it would, i will make the best of it and try to cheer myself up somehow.