Random Thoughts
Howdy~
Unless you are so incredibly bored that you have nothing better to do than to read my thoughts, or if you feel like seeing how my brains works, I suggest you read no further. I've just got a lot of stuff on my mind and plan on typing at least a page or two. Enjoy!!
I've got a second job now, yay!!! I felt like I was just a rock because I wasn't working enough. Not that subway doesn't take a lot of work, but she's cut back my hours so much. Plus, I know bobbie and she's pretty cool. Homestyle won't be a bad place to work, but I've been gettting a lot of crap about working there. But hey, it's money. And friends. Yay!!!!
Saturday was pretty fun. I got my prom/graduation/wedding outfit!!! YAY!!!! I've been waiting 2 weeks for it. It's really pretty. It's a brown skirt, a brown tank top, my little flip flops (well, actually big flip flops caue I have big feet...), and for one event, I've got this cream coat thing, and for another I've got this shawl type thingy. It's really cool!!! And SOOOO pretty!!! I'm really excited about it. I'm not gonna get a super formal dress for prom because I don't have a date, and I really can't afford it. But I did find a really pretty one a Fashion Bug... My mom was actually pretty cool on Saturday. She treated me like an adult, and not a 13 year old... Yay!!!
I have a feeling that I may have to talk to her soon about that... I mean, I've got two jobs, I do most of the house work, I buy some of the groceries, and I pay my own bills. You'd think she could give me a TAD bit more room for making my own decisions, a little later curfew, and just freedom in general. It hit me today while I was talking to Monica how much control my parents actually have. Then I realized that that's why I'm so crazy. I mean, I've been doing everything in this house since I was like 13. I remember when I was 7, my mom took me downstairs and showed me how to do the damn laundry. Then I did it from that day on. Now, granted i don't do everything every single day, I was still taking care of the majority of the house things. And it wasn't even till my last year that I got paid for it. I'm not complaining, ok, maybe a little. I've got a lot of house cleaning skills to back me up, and I don't hate them. What I hate is being called every fucking 5 minutes to do someone's bidding. Seriously, it's like I don't have enough to do during the day with school and work and other chores, that they have to call me everytime they want something done. And they wonder why I hide in my room and want to go out all the time... Yeah...
I know my mom took my Grandma's death hard, I mean it was her Mother. She went semi bi-polar after that, always having mood swings and yelling over stupid things and just getting mad for no real reason. My Grandpa is my favorite guy in the world, and I will defend all of his actions and whatever he does till the day I die. In my world, you don't talk smack about Grandpa, or anyone else that I love for that matter...
But anyways. Point I'm trying to make is that I'm 18, and I still have to answer every little thing I do to my parents. I'm going to go nuts... I figure, if I keep up on the laundry, keep the house clean, and keep my room clean they won't have any reason to keep me home. The thing is, is that they can share in on some of the responsibility too. My brother can help out more, mom and dad can do something after work besides go sit down in their room or in the living room... I know they pay bills, and I know that they work 6-9 hours every week day. But I have a life too... I hate that every time I want to step foot out the door I have to get a list of 20 things to do done... I know, minor thing to complain about when we have world famine and world wars going on. But in my small little worldly bubble, it isn't that much to ask. Especially when all donny does is go to school and play on his play station for 4-6 hours at a time.
I haven't talked to Brandon for almost 2 weeks. He thinks he's disappointed me. Well, he had, but I understand. I mean, if some old friend finally wanted to go out with him, why not go out with her? I'm always going to be here. It's not like it really matters anyways. I still don't know if he's mature enough for an actual relationship yet. When I do something, I put my whole heart into it. At work, I work until there isn't anything else to do, then I find something. With my friends, I don't care if it's 4 in the morning and you need to talk, I'll be up for you. With my family, well, I'd just do anything for them. With a relationship it's no different. I used to think I had commitment issues. Then I realized I was too committed. (not insanely guys, come on... :p) Yes, I know that I'm just 18, but when you have a lot of time to think about these things, you take a big look at yourself.
School is starting to stress me out a little. In health she has our last 3 scenario test schedule in the next 5 weeks. That's at least a chapter a day to have to get through for them, not to mention getting the skills outta the way from those chapters. On friday I learned splinting. That was kinda fun. In my sex and gender class I have a paper due wednesday and a test coming up. In history we've got so many notes to go over... He said like 36 pages, for ONE chapter alone. No kidding... My philosophy class is pretty cool. We're going over arguments for the existence of God. It's pretty fun. I have a paper due in 2 weeks for that class too. My speech is getting to be pretty awesome too!!! For my next speech, we have to choose between a poem to do, or a play. I was going to read one of my friends poems, but then I rememebered the plays we were in this past winter, and it would be incredibly awesome if I acted out a scene from one of those!!! It's 3 mintues long for a poem, and 10 minutes for the play. I'm probably gonna go for the play, because I can fill 10 minutes of that. I just have to decide what to act out... It's gonna be hard!!!
You guys, we're graduating!!!! I've got RCTC graduation on the 10th of May, and Stewie graduation on the 28th. Wow... Makes ya feel old!!! It's gonna be pretty awesome because the next weekend my aunt graduates from her college out in South Dakota so I'm gonna go visit her. Kick ass!!! This is my favorite aunt Jennie, and she's awesome!!! She's gonna be a nurse. It's pretty cool, she's already got a job, and she's gonna live with our super cool Aunt Lynn and Uncle Frank out there. They just adopted a baby from... Japan?? I think... Her name is delayne (misspelled I'm sure...). She's such a little cutie.
Ok, I'm done for now. I've still got lot's of thoughts, but I think that this is enough... Told ya my brain was a little crowded. Bye!!!
Unless you are so incredibly bored that you have nothing better to do than to read my thoughts, or if you feel like seeing how my brains works, I suggest you read no further. I've just got a lot of stuff on my mind and plan on typing at least a page or two. Enjoy!!
I've got a second job now, yay!!! I felt like I was just a rock because I wasn't working enough. Not that subway doesn't take a lot of work, but she's cut back my hours so much. Plus, I know bobbie and she's pretty cool. Homestyle won't be a bad place to work, but I've been gettting a lot of crap about working there. But hey, it's money. And friends. Yay!!!!
Saturday was pretty fun. I got my prom/graduation/wedding outfit!!! YAY!!!! I've been waiting 2 weeks for it. It's really pretty. It's a brown skirt, a brown tank top, my little flip flops (well, actually big flip flops caue I have big feet...), and for one event, I've got this cream coat thing, and for another I've got this shawl type thingy. It's really cool!!! And SOOOO pretty!!! I'm really excited about it. I'm not gonna get a super formal dress for prom because I don't have a date, and I really can't afford it. But I did find a really pretty one a Fashion Bug... My mom was actually pretty cool on Saturday. She treated me like an adult, and not a 13 year old... Yay!!!
I have a feeling that I may have to talk to her soon about that... I mean, I've got two jobs, I do most of the house work, I buy some of the groceries, and I pay my own bills. You'd think she could give me a TAD bit more room for making my own decisions, a little later curfew, and just freedom in general. It hit me today while I was talking to Monica how much control my parents actually have. Then I realized that that's why I'm so crazy. I mean, I've been doing everything in this house since I was like 13. I remember when I was 7, my mom took me downstairs and showed me how to do the damn laundry. Then I did it from that day on. Now, granted i don't do everything every single day, I was still taking care of the majority of the house things. And it wasn't even till my last year that I got paid for it. I'm not complaining, ok, maybe a little. I've got a lot of house cleaning skills to back me up, and I don't hate them. What I hate is being called every fucking 5 minutes to do someone's bidding. Seriously, it's like I don't have enough to do during the day with school and work and other chores, that they have to call me everytime they want something done. And they wonder why I hide in my room and want to go out all the time... Yeah...
I know my mom took my Grandma's death hard, I mean it was her Mother. She went semi bi-polar after that, always having mood swings and yelling over stupid things and just getting mad for no real reason. My Grandpa is my favorite guy in the world, and I will defend all of his actions and whatever he does till the day I die. In my world, you don't talk smack about Grandpa, or anyone else that I love for that matter...
But anyways. Point I'm trying to make is that I'm 18, and I still have to answer every little thing I do to my parents. I'm going to go nuts... I figure, if I keep up on the laundry, keep the house clean, and keep my room clean they won't have any reason to keep me home. The thing is, is that they can share in on some of the responsibility too. My brother can help out more, mom and dad can do something after work besides go sit down in their room or in the living room... I know they pay bills, and I know that they work 6-9 hours every week day. But I have a life too... I hate that every time I want to step foot out the door I have to get a list of 20 things to do done... I know, minor thing to complain about when we have world famine and world wars going on. But in my small little worldly bubble, it isn't that much to ask. Especially when all donny does is go to school and play on his play station for 4-6 hours at a time.
I haven't talked to Brandon for almost 2 weeks. He thinks he's disappointed me. Well, he had, but I understand. I mean, if some old friend finally wanted to go out with him, why not go out with her? I'm always going to be here. It's not like it really matters anyways. I still don't know if he's mature enough for an actual relationship yet. When I do something, I put my whole heart into it. At work, I work until there isn't anything else to do, then I find something. With my friends, I don't care if it's 4 in the morning and you need to talk, I'll be up for you. With my family, well, I'd just do anything for them. With a relationship it's no different. I used to think I had commitment issues. Then I realized I was too committed. (not insanely guys, come on... :p) Yes, I know that I'm just 18, but when you have a lot of time to think about these things, you take a big look at yourself.
School is starting to stress me out a little. In health she has our last 3 scenario test schedule in the next 5 weeks. That's at least a chapter a day to have to get through for them, not to mention getting the skills outta the way from those chapters. On friday I learned splinting. That was kinda fun. In my sex and gender class I have a paper due wednesday and a test coming up. In history we've got so many notes to go over... He said like 36 pages, for ONE chapter alone. No kidding... My philosophy class is pretty cool. We're going over arguments for the existence of God. It's pretty fun. I have a paper due in 2 weeks for that class too. My speech is getting to be pretty awesome too!!! For my next speech, we have to choose between a poem to do, or a play. I was going to read one of my friends poems, but then I rememebered the plays we were in this past winter, and it would be incredibly awesome if I acted out a scene from one of those!!! It's 3 mintues long for a poem, and 10 minutes for the play. I'm probably gonna go for the play, because I can fill 10 minutes of that. I just have to decide what to act out... It's gonna be hard!!!
You guys, we're graduating!!!! I've got RCTC graduation on the 10th of May, and Stewie graduation on the 28th. Wow... Makes ya feel old!!! It's gonna be pretty awesome because the next weekend my aunt graduates from her college out in South Dakota so I'm gonna go visit her. Kick ass!!! This is my favorite aunt Jennie, and she's awesome!!! She's gonna be a nurse. It's pretty cool, she's already got a job, and she's gonna live with our super cool Aunt Lynn and Uncle Frank out there. They just adopted a baby from... Japan?? I think... Her name is delayne (misspelled I'm sure...). She's such a little cutie.
Ok, I'm done for now. I've still got lot's of thoughts, but I think that this is enough... Told ya my brain was a little crowded. Bye!!!