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right... so i'm not sure what happened to this whole friends concept? as i recall.... i used to have a lot of them. like in high school. i had shannon and jenna and then i had fattt and then i had steph.
now i have corbin and maddie. like in reality.... corbin and maddie are the only ones who are my like friends on a regular basis. and the reeeeeeeally sad part is that i haven't made any new ones. i made a friend at school. ONE. i went to school for an entire freaking year and made ONE SINGLE friend. and i had a boyfriend so i guess he was my friend. but still. i just don't understand. i used to be outgoing and friendly and have all this energy to go do things and be at parties.
what the fuck happened to me? did i become less interesting? less fun? a bitch? what? i just really don't understand. i WANT to understand. so please.. if you are reading this and have any ideas please say it. hurt my feelings. maybe it will help me to realize how to change so that i can be that "social butterfly" i always was.
oh ballls. how did this happen? how did i let this happen?
on a different note... how did i let myself gain this much weight. why didn't i stop it before it got this bad? i just don't understand how i didn't stop it. oh well. i still have time. i'm not MORBIDLY obese. so.....
right. my boyfriend woke me up at 5am to have sex. and now i can't sleep. and i went to bed at 2. and i am supposed to go to chicago today.
fabulous.
now i have corbin and maddie. like in reality.... corbin and maddie are the only ones who are my like friends on a regular basis. and the reeeeeeeally sad part is that i haven't made any new ones. i made a friend at school. ONE. i went to school for an entire freaking year and made ONE SINGLE friend. and i had a boyfriend so i guess he was my friend. but still. i just don't understand. i used to be outgoing and friendly and have all this energy to go do things and be at parties.
what the fuck happened to me? did i become less interesting? less fun? a bitch? what? i just really don't understand. i WANT to understand. so please.. if you are reading this and have any ideas please say it. hurt my feelings. maybe it will help me to realize how to change so that i can be that "social butterfly" i always was.
oh ballls. how did this happen? how did i let this happen?
on a different note... how did i let myself gain this much weight. why didn't i stop it before it got this bad? i just don't understand how i didn't stop it. oh well. i still have time. i'm not MORBIDLY obese. so.....
right. my boyfriend woke me up at 5am to have sex. and now i can't sleep. and i went to bed at 2. and i am supposed to go to chicago today.
fabulous.