i dont know whats going through me
last night was pretty fun
went to denton saw some bands
saw some kids
drank some beers
everyones getting so damned skinny.
maybe i need to move back to denton..
sike.
stopped by the cupboard this morning to see amy
bought two bottles of odwalla [lime and superfood] and the latest issue of ready made
i forgot how muchi like that magazine
[even though i never make anything they have in it]
i kind of like it because it teaches you how to cheat at being cultured
sort of, not really.
anyway
talking with people you havent seen in a while makes you realize that everyone is nuts.
everyone.
and sometimes, usuallywhen youre around the nuttiness every day you just learn to ignore it.
you accept it, thats just how it is..
but when you are removed from the nuttiness, and then it is re-presented to you at a later time.. you cant help but feel shaken.
i've got a bad case of the "what-was-i-thinkings"
i spent such a long time being afraid of everything and all i think i really was doing was masking my fear of myself.
so as i challenge myself more and more i find the understanding for the way i've behaved starting to flee me and i cant help but feel sorry for that girl.. because the connection i had with her was based solely on helplessness.
not to saythat i dont still act completely irrational and neurotic..
but if i look back to a year.. to two years ago.
i was a big hunk of chaos..
and fuck, i've got to get on track and out of the suburbs...
wow.
as my birthday rapidly approaches..
i've decided that i really want a jigsaw
i think it may solve all my problems.
no, but at least i can create some things that i'll probably give you as presents
23's going to be a long, but good year
i pray to God it will be good.
i've got to get out of this funk.
went to denton saw some bands
saw some kids
drank some beers
everyones getting so damned skinny.
maybe i need to move back to denton..
sike.
stopped by the cupboard this morning to see amy
bought two bottles of odwalla [lime and superfood] and the latest issue of ready made
i forgot how muchi like that magazine
[even though i never make anything they have in it]
i kind of like it because it teaches you how to cheat at being cultured
sort of, not really.
anyway
talking with people you havent seen in a while makes you realize that everyone is nuts.
everyone.
and sometimes, usuallywhen youre around the nuttiness every day you just learn to ignore it.
you accept it, thats just how it is..
but when you are removed from the nuttiness, and then it is re-presented to you at a later time.. you cant help but feel shaken.
i've got a bad case of the "what-was-i-thinkings"
i spent such a long time being afraid of everything and all i think i really was doing was masking my fear of myself.
so as i challenge myself more and more i find the understanding for the way i've behaved starting to flee me and i cant help but feel sorry for that girl.. because the connection i had with her was based solely on helplessness.
not to saythat i dont still act completely irrational and neurotic..
but if i look back to a year.. to two years ago.
i was a big hunk of chaos..
and fuck, i've got to get on track and out of the suburbs...
wow.
as my birthday rapidly approaches..
i've decided that i really want a jigsaw
i think it may solve all my problems.
no, but at least i can create some things that i'll probably give you as presents
23's going to be a long, but good year
i pray to God it will be good.
i've got to get out of this funk.