fairness is relative
well, i can honestly say i am not doing well at all.
typically, i'd tryand pick myself back up and dust myself off and say "god will not give youmore than you can handle"
however, at this point, "handle" is relative
because i have a very very loose grip.
"you're so positive"
yah, so i've heard
well that doesnt mean for everyone/thing in my life to constantly test me and assume i'm unaffected or can make it out in one piece.
becuase i'm not going to be able to this time.
one thing i can handle... but everything is crasing in tidal waves around me and it seems like everywhere i turn something bad happens..
bloody fucking hell!
does noone apologize?
if this is what being a strong person feels like, i'd rather be a passive, helpless, bratty sreaming and kicking little girl
i'm so pissed off at myself.
i dont know how to fix this.
maybe a kitten... maybe i just want radar back
but hes not coming back.
typically, i'd tryand pick myself back up and dust myself off and say "god will not give youmore than you can handle"
however, at this point, "handle" is relative
because i have a very very loose grip.
"you're so positive"
yah, so i've heard
well that doesnt mean for everyone/thing in my life to constantly test me and assume i'm unaffected or can make it out in one piece.
becuase i'm not going to be able to this time.
one thing i can handle... but everything is crasing in tidal waves around me and it seems like everywhere i turn something bad happens..
bloody fucking hell!
does noone apologize?
if this is what being a strong person feels like, i'd rather be a passive, helpless, bratty sreaming and kicking little girl
i'm so pissed off at myself.
i dont know how to fix this.
maybe a kitten... maybe i just want radar back
but hes not coming back.