CHANGES....
After Thanksgiving, I was talking to my best friend from home Laura, who is attending grand valley, on the drive back up to school. We left at 5am so we for sure needed to stay away and talk the entire way up here. We remininced of the old days.
Some quick memories....
Her old green van that you had to enter through the trunk.
Softball and doing it for the nooking...all star team
Egging every weekend...and having charles Manson Chase us for around 30 minutes with a gun in his beat up station wagon just because we hit his car with 2 eggs....we were gangsta gangsta
Coffee houses...hacky sack...bishop park...the spot.
stealing political signs and putting them in other peoples yards, turning street signs around....railroad signs upside down.
getting pulled over in grosse ile because we were stealing christmas decorations, were drunk, driving, speeding, door opened, speeding, a car full of lights, driving past curfew, car smelled of weed, keith and the other kid oinking at the cops, keith crackin his pipe (putting it up his ass) and then having it fall out in front of the cops, dressed completely inappropriately, asking the cops if they would share their donuts, the breathlizers, knocking over santa, calling the cops scummy pigs, and getting off with only a warning.
more importantly
the shin digs...drinking to the point of not remembering every weekend....jumping on the trampoline drunk...running naked around the neighboorhood.
first time smoking cigs, drinking, smoking pot, doing nos, and coriciden (sp)
completely tripping going around the corner and being lost, finding the sidewalk, water, hands, and everything else amazing to look at and touch...and the drive home being hard because the cars looked as if they were mario cars from the origional nintendo.
losing our virginity.
ex boyfriends and all the mistakes..
having way too much sex...for all the wrong reasons.
me dating guys way too old for me and going to college parties all the time..
being raped and having each other.
her coming out (she's gay) and telling me first, as well as my big mistake and her being the only friend there for me.
my taveling overseas, getting drunk, peeing in the street, mooning and flashing cars, skinny dipping in the ocean, five star meals, sex in the park, the sex store, i'm a festis, "party party...i'm so beautiful", swimming and dancing in the public fountains, dancing in the rain and exchanging clothes, free drinks, shopping at designer shops for cheap, playing with the jelly fish, bartending, taking off clothes for free drinks, getting lost,dates in london, drinking wine, riding hangover and yelling U.S.A only to get a free ride, blonde hair and blue eyes don't go well in mexico, cliff jumping (into water of course), her trips to ga to see her dad and not going well
problems with jason, emotional and physical abuse, the many times i called her to pick me up and her feeling crushed when i decided not to go with her. The day he bruised me up hit me with his car, broke my glasses and cell phone, walking the 2 miles in a skirt and high heels to the police station, the trial, him getting off early, me not being able to look in the mirror for 3 months without crying, completely losing site of who i was and who i wanted to be
the funeral for tommy (one of our closest friends who was hit by a train), the funerals for both our grandmas
Starting from scratch and builing myself up.
She ended the conversation by saying Katie people here probably don't know in that way, they don't know the stories, but I do. Its amazing how you've completely changed. She said I was the person that I always wanted to be, and for this and many other reasons thats why she could see me getting married and starting my life now, because she knows i'm ready.
I guess I have completely changed. No longer do i party all the time, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I have the man that I want, I only have one sexual partner now, I know what I'm what I want to do with my life, I'm about to move in with my boyfriend, and I've become the person I've always wanted to be.
I've only become this way because Matt has helped me become the person I want to be. He is encouraging and supportive. He's a good listener, he respects me and my family. And because he's such a wholesome guy and I wanted him, he indirectly challenged me to become a more wholesome person. There is so much more I could say about Matt...but lets just say Theres no other guy more perfect for me than him. We balance each other out. And Laura is right...I'm ready to settle down with him.
Some quick memories....
Her old green van that you had to enter through the trunk.
Softball and doing it for the nooking...all star team
Egging every weekend...and having charles Manson Chase us for around 30 minutes with a gun in his beat up station wagon just because we hit his car with 2 eggs....we were gangsta gangsta
Coffee houses...hacky sack...bishop park...the spot.
stealing political signs and putting them in other peoples yards, turning street signs around....railroad signs upside down.
getting pulled over in grosse ile because we were stealing christmas decorations, were drunk, driving, speeding, door opened, speeding, a car full of lights, driving past curfew, car smelled of weed, keith and the other kid oinking at the cops, keith crackin his pipe (putting it up his ass) and then having it fall out in front of the cops, dressed completely inappropriately, asking the cops if they would share their donuts, the breathlizers, knocking over santa, calling the cops scummy pigs, and getting off with only a warning.
more importantly
the shin digs...drinking to the point of not remembering every weekend....jumping on the trampoline drunk...running naked around the neighboorhood.
first time smoking cigs, drinking, smoking pot, doing nos, and coriciden (sp)
completely tripping going around the corner and being lost, finding the sidewalk, water, hands, and everything else amazing to look at and touch...and the drive home being hard because the cars looked as if they were mario cars from the origional nintendo.
losing our virginity.
ex boyfriends and all the mistakes..
having way too much sex...for all the wrong reasons.
me dating guys way too old for me and going to college parties all the time..
being raped and having each other.
her coming out (she's gay) and telling me first, as well as my big mistake and her being the only friend there for me.
my taveling overseas, getting drunk, peeing in the street, mooning and flashing cars, skinny dipping in the ocean, five star meals, sex in the park, the sex store, i'm a festis, "party party...i'm so beautiful", swimming and dancing in the public fountains, dancing in the rain and exchanging clothes, free drinks, shopping at designer shops for cheap, playing with the jelly fish, bartending, taking off clothes for free drinks, getting lost,dates in london, drinking wine, riding hangover and yelling U.S.A only to get a free ride, blonde hair and blue eyes don't go well in mexico, cliff jumping (into water of course), her trips to ga to see her dad and not going well
problems with jason, emotional and physical abuse, the many times i called her to pick me up and her feeling crushed when i decided not to go with her. The day he bruised me up hit me with his car, broke my glasses and cell phone, walking the 2 miles in a skirt and high heels to the police station, the trial, him getting off early, me not being able to look in the mirror for 3 months without crying, completely losing site of who i was and who i wanted to be
the funeral for tommy (one of our closest friends who was hit by a train), the funerals for both our grandmas
Starting from scratch and builing myself up.
She ended the conversation by saying Katie people here probably don't know in that way, they don't know the stories, but I do. Its amazing how you've completely changed. She said I was the person that I always wanted to be, and for this and many other reasons thats why she could see me getting married and starting my life now, because she knows i'm ready.
I guess I have completely changed. No longer do i party all the time, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I have the man that I want, I only have one sexual partner now, I know what I'm what I want to do with my life, I'm about to move in with my boyfriend, and I've become the person I've always wanted to be.
I've only become this way because Matt has helped me become the person I want to be. He is encouraging and supportive. He's a good listener, he respects me and my family. And because he's such a wholesome guy and I wanted him, he indirectly challenged me to become a more wholesome person. There is so much more I could say about Matt...but lets just say Theres no other guy more perfect for me than him. We balance each other out. And Laura is right...I'm ready to settle down with him.