Um. . . stuff
That's going to be the name of me and Heidi's emo band. ;)
I don't really know what to say or do these days. I feel really tired. Not sleepy tired, but exhausted tired. So much to accomplish in so little time, and yet sometimes I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I stay here just because, well, where else would I go?
It's raining. A nice, misty kind of rain that gently coats the grass and every individual leaf on all the trees. It's a morning made for Faust and sitting by an open window. There's something about the smell of rain in the air that just fills every inch of you and makes you feel buoyant and happy to be alive. It's so refreshing. It gives you a chance to start over and completely cleanse yourself of former mistakes and past embarrassments. Lord knows I need cleansing of those! Maybe it should rain all the time. It makes me want to be fishing. Or camping. It makes me want to be camping with Jesse.
God, I miss him.
::sigh:: Well, I suppose Nick is on one end of the spectrum complaining about how he has no one, and here I am complaining that I never see my someone. Sometimes it doesn't feel like I have a fiance. It's so confusing to love someone so much you never even see. I'm so worried every time we see eachother that we'll have changed and we won't be in love anymore. But that'll never happen, right? Every night I pray it won't. I send him a kiss on the wind, and somehow I know he gets it.
Okay, I've rambled long enough. You may all return to your regularly scheduled programming.
I don't really know what to say or do these days. I feel really tired. Not sleepy tired, but exhausted tired. So much to accomplish in so little time, and yet sometimes I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I stay here just because, well, where else would I go?
It's raining. A nice, misty kind of rain that gently coats the grass and every individual leaf on all the trees. It's a morning made for Faust and sitting by an open window. There's something about the smell of rain in the air that just fills every inch of you and makes you feel buoyant and happy to be alive. It's so refreshing. It gives you a chance to start over and completely cleanse yourself of former mistakes and past embarrassments. Lord knows I need cleansing of those! Maybe it should rain all the time. It makes me want to be fishing. Or camping. It makes me want to be camping with Jesse.
God, I miss him.
::sigh:: Well, I suppose Nick is on one end of the spectrum complaining about how he has no one, and here I am complaining that I never see my someone. Sometimes it doesn't feel like I have a fiance. It's so confusing to love someone so much you never even see. I'm so worried every time we see eachother that we'll have changed and we won't be in love anymore. But that'll never happen, right? Every night I pray it won't. I send him a kiss on the wind, and somehow I know he gets it.
Okay, I've rambled long enough. You may all return to your regularly scheduled programming.