Take a chance on me
There are some things you just never know. You can think you've got it all figured out then one tiny thing will change your whole world. I'm tired of trying to decide things. I'm not going to be the one to put everyone on the spot to get everything out in the open. But when it matters most, will everyone even then really be willing to say the truth? A lot of what we do is based off of a whim. You never know what someone is going to think about an idea. People always say "the worst that can happen is they say no" but when that is all you've heard your whole life then it's more painful than just a word. And here I am being vague because I don't trust even myself anymore with my own thoughts. I've only brought myself more trouble than Its worth so whatever. I just wish we could all be honest with ourselves. My mind is at war with my heart on so many levels it's hard to take. And every time I lean one way it gives me more reason on the other. Our generation was raised in a world where we don't have the luxury of taking risks. Hell, even getting a mortgage is near impossible. I just wish there was a way to know what will happen. Am I making the right choices? Am I going to be happy? Will I ever be happy...? Why do I feel so.... Empty?