Just because I don't want to call you does no mean you can feel that way about me!
Am I turning into a possessive girlfriend? I just might be. He's been gone for two days without a call. I mean I would like to know he hasn't died on the slopes or something. I better not joke.
I have been so lazy today. I just need to get my but moving and work on my audition stuff. But I can't seem to get motivated. Too many other things are running through my head. I can handle this though. Last semester was way to stressful and I need to calm down a bit this time. I'm hoping that happens though I am really thinking my calm days are over for good. There is always something new looming ahead of me. But I like it I think. I'm feeling better then yesterday although I know something is still missing. I'm going out with Megan and Ashlee so that should be fun. It will be fun! I need something exciting. Maybe something will happen tonight! I sound like a hopeless teenager when I say that. It reminds me of how turning 16. I thought it would be this amazing and exciting day full of....actually I have no idea but it was supposed to be great! It was horrible. I just sat there and waited to feel older but nothing had changed. And I guess where I'm going with this is that things don't change when your waiting. Or hoping they will. This is random.
The place where I wrote all the boys I liked on my window is gone. I just noticed. We got new windows this fall and it's covered up. Except for a little T for Tim. I hope that’s not a sign. I got really sad that it was gone. I just always imagined the next people who owned this house having a girl and she would look at it and wonder what the hell someone meant but writing this on the window. She would have no idea it gave us so many laughs! But maybe because it's mostly covered it will be there forever. Wow I am being really ridiculous about this. I'm not really serious but I was kinda sad when I saw it was covered. As everyone knows change makes me kinda sad. But I am getting better at it
Sorry this is all bull shit and should be ignored!
I have been so lazy today. I just need to get my but moving and work on my audition stuff. But I can't seem to get motivated. Too many other things are running through my head. I can handle this though. Last semester was way to stressful and I need to calm down a bit this time. I'm hoping that happens though I am really thinking my calm days are over for good. There is always something new looming ahead of me. But I like it I think. I'm feeling better then yesterday although I know something is still missing. I'm going out with Megan and Ashlee so that should be fun. It will be fun! I need something exciting. Maybe something will happen tonight! I sound like a hopeless teenager when I say that. It reminds me of how turning 16. I thought it would be this amazing and exciting day full of....actually I have no idea but it was supposed to be great! It was horrible. I just sat there and waited to feel older but nothing had changed. And I guess where I'm going with this is that things don't change when your waiting. Or hoping they will. This is random.
The place where I wrote all the boys I liked on my window is gone. I just noticed. We got new windows this fall and it's covered up. Except for a little T for Tim. I hope that’s not a sign. I got really sad that it was gone. I just always imagined the next people who owned this house having a girl and she would look at it and wonder what the hell someone meant but writing this on the window. She would have no idea it gave us so many laughs! But maybe because it's mostly covered it will be there forever. Wow I am being really ridiculous about this. I'm not really serious but I was kinda sad when I saw it was covered. As everyone knows change makes me kinda sad. But I am getting better at it
Sorry this is all bull shit and should be ignored!