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I wonder, sometimes, if i even know what i want. if i only want things because i can't have them. (thing).
And what of trying to fill a void? That's what i've been doing all of my life. That's what i'm focusing all of my energy on not doing these days. I know what the most important thing to me is right now. Life. Mine. for once, this is what matters to me. I matter to me. and now it's time to decide what will truly make me happy, and what is best for me. When i see the future, i know what will always be in it, and what will always be the most important thing. If it's not, I don't have a future. Would you really be a part of that? Would you believe in me? Would you be good for me? There was a time when i had no doubt about that, but things are so much different now. We are so much different now.
When i see my future, you aren't there anymore.
Why do i still think about this?
And what of trying to fill a void? That's what i've been doing all of my life. That's what i'm focusing all of my energy on not doing these days. I know what the most important thing to me is right now. Life. Mine. for once, this is what matters to me. I matter to me. and now it's time to decide what will truly make me happy, and what is best for me. When i see the future, i know what will always be in it, and what will always be the most important thing. If it's not, I don't have a future. Would you really be a part of that? Would you believe in me? Would you be good for me? There was a time when i had no doubt about that, but things are so much different now. We are so much different now.
When i see my future, you aren't there anymore.
Why do i still think about this?