Been a *very* long time
So.... Where am I?
(cynic voice says "On your computer at home, typing this post")
I am.... at the intersection of Busy and Stressed. :-)
I am doing very well in grad school Straight A's my first quarter. Proud of that. People consider me intelligent, and brave for being out about being : bi, poly, borderline...
I have been working hard on getting back into shape and back into my size 6 pants, with mixed results. I love boxing. It is fun, and kicks my ass. I'm not working hard enough on non-boxing days though, and I'm bouncing up and down weight wise, keeping around 20lbs heavier than my low point. Seeing the consistent success of my house-mates in that arena leaves me... Happy for them, but very down on myself. Like, hurting myself hating myself feeling disgusting bad down on myself. *sigh* At least I have something to talk to my therapist about...
I ran a 12k race today with my sister, and I felt not completely crippled afterwards, which was nice.
My mom just moved into the middle of nowhere. It has me very stressed for her, and also stressed because she needs help from me all the time, and I need that time for homework. -stress-
Still working making exactly f*ck all money wise. But the discount on the books is nice...
I'm dreaming of my mini-farm. :-) I want to walk in my vegetable garden on my way to milk my goat. Of course, this is only a dream for now.
I guess I don't really know where I am. I'm learning a lot that is making me think, and re-evaluate my world. And myself. And my family. I lot to think about.
(cynic voice says "On your computer at home, typing this post")
I am.... at the intersection of Busy and Stressed. :-)
I am doing very well in grad school Straight A's my first quarter. Proud of that. People consider me intelligent, and brave for being out about being : bi, poly, borderline...
I have been working hard on getting back into shape and back into my size 6 pants, with mixed results. I love boxing. It is fun, and kicks my ass. I'm not working hard enough on non-boxing days though, and I'm bouncing up and down weight wise, keeping around 20lbs heavier than my low point. Seeing the consistent success of my house-mates in that arena leaves me... Happy for them, but very down on myself. Like, hurting myself hating myself feeling disgusting bad down on myself. *sigh* At least I have something to talk to my therapist about...
I ran a 12k race today with my sister, and I felt not completely crippled afterwards, which was nice.
My mom just moved into the middle of nowhere. It has me very stressed for her, and also stressed because she needs help from me all the time, and I need that time for homework. -stress-
Still working making exactly f*ck all money wise. But the discount on the books is nice...
I'm dreaming of my mini-farm. :-) I want to walk in my vegetable garden on my way to milk my goat. Of course, this is only a dream for now.
I guess I don't really know where I am. I'm learning a lot that is making me think, and re-evaluate my world. And myself. And my family. I lot to think about.