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I am being an emo brat today......Yes I have been in the Hamptons with P. diddy for a couple days. I am having a great time here, is amazing and so sweet. But i dont know where he is, he took off earlier. Hopefully he will come back tonight. Anyways, I found out that Dan proposed to Jessie. I met jessie last night she is an amazing girl and so sweet and I know they will be happy, but there is definte jealousy right now on my part. It seems anyone that i have ever had anything with chooses someone else for me. Granted they choose amazing girls and friends in some cases over me, but still. I feel so inferior. I have really spent a lot of time with P. diddy and I really like him, but I just dont think that he would be willing to start something that I would like and it always seems i screw something up one way or another. I dont know, maybe I am just being emo, But i just havent been myself for the past couple of days. Thank god I do have P. diddy to keep me sane and make me feel beautiful. I have my friends too but they dont talk to me all that much anymore. I dont know, maybe i am just taking things personally. i THINK i need a good cry.