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I've never really felt inspired to write poetry. To me, poetry is kind of depressing. And now that he's gone, I can't stop writing poems, new quotes, and songs that I think of. Sometimes it makes me feel better to write about it, but sometimes it makes me cry. I can never quite pinpoint what I'm feeling because the feelings change with every minute of the day.
I know that I'm doing fine. I know that I want him back. I know that it will take time. I know that he may never come back to me. I know that I'll always love him. But most of all, I know that I'll be ok. I know I may not want to be ok without him, but I will be. And I understand.
Last night I went to the halloween dance with Leslie. We dressed up as kitty cats. It was cool. I had a good time with everyone. Dance is great. When I got home I got online and talked to steven for about and hour and then he called me and we talked for another two hours. I fell asleep on the phone and woke up when he started screaming in my ear. Whoops. =)
Halloween looks like another boring night for me. Staying home with my dog handing out candy to kids that come ringing my door bell. I've never really done anything interesting or fun on Halloween. I always spend Friday night at home anyway so I guess it's not a big thing to me this year. It just sucks that everyone I know is going to be out with their friends or someone they love.
Ivar's fish bar opened today. So mommy went back to work. And they're going to repair the rest of the restaurant so it'll be back up and running. Who knows when though.
I need to find something to do. I can't stand being bored anymore. Maybe I'll read. Even though I've read pretty much every book I own in the last week. And I've done a milion word search puzzles. Maybe I'll go write some more poetry.
I'm thinking maybe I'll get my tongue pierced when all my dental work is done. I'm seriously considering it. Daddy doesn't like the idea and I haven't even broke the news to Ona. But I don't care. They won't kick me out, they won't cut me off. They love me too much. =) (I wish someone else still did)
I know that I'm doing fine. I know that I want him back. I know that it will take time. I know that he may never come back to me. I know that I'll always love him. But most of all, I know that I'll be ok. I know I may not want to be ok without him, but I will be. And I understand.
Last night I went to the halloween dance with Leslie. We dressed up as kitty cats. It was cool. I had a good time with everyone. Dance is great. When I got home I got online and talked to steven for about and hour and then he called me and we talked for another two hours. I fell asleep on the phone and woke up when he started screaming in my ear. Whoops. =)
Halloween looks like another boring night for me. Staying home with my dog handing out candy to kids that come ringing my door bell. I've never really done anything interesting or fun on Halloween. I always spend Friday night at home anyway so I guess it's not a big thing to me this year. It just sucks that everyone I know is going to be out with their friends or someone they love.
Ivar's fish bar opened today. So mommy went back to work. And they're going to repair the rest of the restaurant so it'll be back up and running. Who knows when though.
I need to find something to do. I can't stand being bored anymore. Maybe I'll read. Even though I've read pretty much every book I own in the last week. And I've done a milion word search puzzles. Maybe I'll go write some more poetry.
I'm thinking maybe I'll get my tongue pierced when all my dental work is done. I'm seriously considering it. Daddy doesn't like the idea and I haven't even broke the news to Ona. But I don't care. They won't kick me out, they won't cut me off. They love me too much. =) (I wish someone else still did)