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Ugh Im driving myself crazy. I dont understand myself...my love life is messed up comepletely. I cant get this one kid off my mind, even though I know I have something that is great right in front of me, isnt that just like me?, to get all crazy about someone I dont even really know? I used to think it was because the kid looks a lot like Matt...but Ive come to find it's not..it's the way I see him interact with others, it makes me soo interested in talking to him. It's weird...I wish I could figure it out. I guess Lee just gave me a lot of hope with Thomas now, I know I cant possibly pursue anything with Scott until I figure out how I get along with Thomas, how stupid of me. BUT things are looking up! I think Ill get my oppurtunity soon:) And then I can finally figure out what I want from others, and maybe even myself? But until then...