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What can I even say? I have been, and am still feeling so direction-less. Last week Nick and I climbed a mini-mountain huge hulking mass of rock. I stood up there and watched everything stretch out in every direction and felt good, full, prepared. Then I got back to town and slid straight into 30 hours of work in 3 days and felt buried under a landslide of expectations and responsibilities again. This to-do list is growing and I just don't enough time or energy or dedication for it all.
I am torn between these polar opposites of wanting nothing to change and wishing everything were different. I have both opportunities sitting in front of me. On the side of wanting nothing to change, I can continue to go to school, work full time at Hanna this fall. Everything would certainly be different if I did AmeriCorps next year...stationed in Maryland or Colorado, travelling all over the place to do service activities. But is that too different? Is it too big of a jump? Is it what I really want, or just something I feel like I should do because my friends want to do things like this?
I'm ready for the fall.
I am torn between these polar opposites of wanting nothing to change and wishing everything were different. I have both opportunities sitting in front of me. On the side of wanting nothing to change, I can continue to go to school, work full time at Hanna this fall. Everything would certainly be different if I did AmeriCorps next year...stationed in Maryland or Colorado, travelling all over the place to do service activities. But is that too different? Is it too big of a jump? Is it what I really want, or just something I feel like I should do because my friends want to do things like this?
I'm ready for the fall.