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As most of you know I am a stubborn bitch. I am resilient to change and am persistent in areas I shouldnt be resistant in. All of you know that my passion is theatre. I live and breathe for the stage. I cannot imagine a point in my life after the age of 11 that I have not known theatre is what I want to do. And theatre has never been receptive to me. No one likes an actress who falls on stage. So I have taken to the technical. Steered away from the spotlight and toward the operator.
Some of you may know that I hate school. I hate Simpson, and on a terrible note I hate theatre here. Thats not to say that I am not doing well in school. I have an A- average which is ok by me. I was never terrible at school, yet here I find people ask me for assistance in classwork. Simpson has become an easy ride, minus the hatred of theatre and the time commitment.
All of you know I have found a passion in American Sign Language and have taken classes at DMACC for over a year. I love what I learn there. To be honest I learn more there at 1/8 the cost. The commute to Ankeny Sucks, but its worth it.
Yesterday I was told by the theatre department that I would fail a project (my Summer long Antigone project resulting in a 30 page research final and days of sleeplessness) if I did not show up for a ten minute interview at 4:00 PM. I was told this at 10 o clock at night. The problem: I have my ASL class from 2:30-5:30 in Ankeny. Not only that, but I was to give a two hour speech for this class period. Something which the professor made a point to say could not be made up and no late work accepted. I emailed my Simpson professor this problem. Instead of giving me options as to when else I can do to complete this scholarship requirement, his response was, "I guess it's for you to figure out. Our calendar was published in April. What plans did you have in mind when you signed up for these classes at DMACC?" The predicament arrived. Fail the DMACC speech, or the Summer Long Project. I emailed my DMACC professor past ten PM praying he would be lenient and let me make the speech up on Wednesday. Until I heard back, all I could do was wait.
During my wait time I made one of the greatest decisions I have made in four years. I am dropping my theatre major. I have already completed the requirements for the minor and do not need to take any more if I drop from major to minor. Three years of hell and I am done. The all nighters, the last minute requirements, and the constant reminder that I will never be good enough has been enough to push me away from the theatre at Simpson forever. This is not to say I will not teach it, I checked and that is still possible. Nor is it to say I will not build my theatre like I have been planning. I am done with theatre here. Asking me to skip my three hour class, academic class, for a ten minute interview has pushed me too far. I am Done.
I will be dropping major at the end of this year, I dont want them to make the rest of my year a living hell especially my trip to London. When I drop however, they will get an earful. They managed to turn something I loved with all my heart, one of the only peices of magic in my life, into something I dread and hate. I will leave and I have no second thoughts which makes me think this is the best decision I have made in years.
My DMACC professor is letting me make my speech up on Wednesday. I will be dropping the theatre classes I am scheduled to take in the Spring. I will still be scholarship so I will still be required to participate. But I do not have to sign up for design projects, or Theatre Seminar which means I will graduate on time. I will begin a minimal theatre existence Jan 2008. Its time I do something which is good for me, not for them.
Some of you may know that I hate school. I hate Simpson, and on a terrible note I hate theatre here. Thats not to say that I am not doing well in school. I have an A- average which is ok by me. I was never terrible at school, yet here I find people ask me for assistance in classwork. Simpson has become an easy ride, minus the hatred of theatre and the time commitment.
All of you know I have found a passion in American Sign Language and have taken classes at DMACC for over a year. I love what I learn there. To be honest I learn more there at 1/8 the cost. The commute to Ankeny Sucks, but its worth it.
Yesterday I was told by the theatre department that I would fail a project (my Summer long Antigone project resulting in a 30 page research final and days of sleeplessness) if I did not show up for a ten minute interview at 4:00 PM. I was told this at 10 o clock at night. The problem: I have my ASL class from 2:30-5:30 in Ankeny. Not only that, but I was to give a two hour speech for this class period. Something which the professor made a point to say could not be made up and no late work accepted. I emailed my Simpson professor this problem. Instead of giving me options as to when else I can do to complete this scholarship requirement, his response was, "I guess it's for you to figure out. Our calendar was published in April. What plans did you have in mind when you signed up for these classes at DMACC?" The predicament arrived. Fail the DMACC speech, or the Summer Long Project. I emailed my DMACC professor past ten PM praying he would be lenient and let me make the speech up on Wednesday. Until I heard back, all I could do was wait.
During my wait time I made one of the greatest decisions I have made in four years. I am dropping my theatre major. I have already completed the requirements for the minor and do not need to take any more if I drop from major to minor. Three years of hell and I am done. The all nighters, the last minute requirements, and the constant reminder that I will never be good enough has been enough to push me away from the theatre at Simpson forever. This is not to say I will not teach it, I checked and that is still possible. Nor is it to say I will not build my theatre like I have been planning. I am done with theatre here. Asking me to skip my three hour class, academic class, for a ten minute interview has pushed me too far. I am Done.
I will be dropping major at the end of this year, I dont want them to make the rest of my year a living hell especially my trip to London. When I drop however, they will get an earful. They managed to turn something I loved with all my heart, one of the only peices of magic in my life, into something I dread and hate. I will leave and I have no second thoughts which makes me think this is the best decision I have made in years.
My DMACC professor is letting me make my speech up on Wednesday. I will be dropping the theatre classes I am scheduled to take in the Spring. I will still be scholarship so I will still be required to participate. But I do not have to sign up for design projects, or Theatre Seminar which means I will graduate on time. I will begin a minimal theatre existence Jan 2008. Its time I do something which is good for me, not for them.