Apr 02, 2006 09:53
gosh its late, wonder why i would be awakened just now especially since ive done nothing all evening
its here you just need to accept it and if you go looking, youll get lost...church stuff, its the parents influence but its also making me think
still lacking in a job, dont knwo how much longer i will go before i will seriously be thinking of hookering...i am trying to be optimistic, mainly because NO ONE ELSE IS but its difficult and this new flat getting malarky is making me edgey...which granted, it should be because i need money to live, but still im scared of everything just now
louise talking about big girl things, but i cant be yet, because im not big im still little and also i like to not think about it because you know whenever you think of something it cant ever happen...you know, cause it would never happen just like you planned...?anyone? well this is a fair enough reason for me to leave my entire future to fate (which of course....yes....i dont believe in)
i eat too much, for moneys sake and for my belly's i will need to rectify this
gosh im sleepy, and tommorow mornign brings with it possible oc
good times lie ahead my dear ones x