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hello there everyone. i tried posting twice last week but i suppose my computer didn't want me to.
i'm working on getting a job, hopefully i will know today what is going on. i think it's about that time that I get back into the work thing because i'm this close.. how close?... this close!... to getting on my own last nerve. (that was an inside joke with, umm, myself!) anyway, bad sign!
over the last week i think i realized a lot of how i have changed since i was in high school. the ways i interacted with people compared to how i handle things now. it's a world of a difference. i'm not a different person, i've just grown up some. i'm sure some of you probably think i'm still immature and a basketcase, and well, i am.. but then again, some of you didn't know me back then! how did i have friends i ask you.. how? but anyway, i'd just like to make it known that i am really trying to be a better person, to myself, and to my friends. because without me and without you, what the hell? there'd be nothing! i saw the other day on something, can't remember what, where a guy was saying that people say they do things for their friends, but in reality it all comes back to self-satisfaction. and for a minute i agreed with that. but the more i think about it, the more i think it's a bunch of bull honky. yeah, of course everyone likes some degree of attention, but in the long run, i don't give a flying flip about myself compared to the people around me. and in some circumstances i think that is a flaw of mine... i devote my attention to other people and not myself. it's like the only attention i give myself is to the things that are wrong with me. but then again, i'm sitting here trying to think of something that is right with me, and nothing is coming to mind. so i guess that explains the negativity.
so... to copy off of shanick... my short term goals ARE.....
1. stay calm in frustrating situations
2. eat out a max of 2 times a week
3. give people answers when they ask for them, not whenever i feel like giving them
4. be humble
5. remember... "The sky is blue, the ocean is blue, these things are blue, but I am not blue."
and my long term goals ARE....
1. respect myself like i would want them to respect me
2. respect my friends and family like they deserve to be respected
...am i making any sense?
i'm working on getting a job, hopefully i will know today what is going on. i think it's about that time that I get back into the work thing because i'm this close.. how close?... this close!... to getting on my own last nerve. (that was an inside joke with, umm, myself!) anyway, bad sign!
over the last week i think i realized a lot of how i have changed since i was in high school. the ways i interacted with people compared to how i handle things now. it's a world of a difference. i'm not a different person, i've just grown up some. i'm sure some of you probably think i'm still immature and a basketcase, and well, i am.. but then again, some of you didn't know me back then! how did i have friends i ask you.. how? but anyway, i'd just like to make it known that i am really trying to be a better person, to myself, and to my friends. because without me and without you, what the hell? there'd be nothing! i saw the other day on something, can't remember what, where a guy was saying that people say they do things for their friends, but in reality it all comes back to self-satisfaction. and for a minute i agreed with that. but the more i think about it, the more i think it's a bunch of bull honky. yeah, of course everyone likes some degree of attention, but in the long run, i don't give a flying flip about myself compared to the people around me. and in some circumstances i think that is a flaw of mine... i devote my attention to other people and not myself. it's like the only attention i give myself is to the things that are wrong with me. but then again, i'm sitting here trying to think of something that is right with me, and nothing is coming to mind. so i guess that explains the negativity.
so... to copy off of shanick... my short term goals ARE.....
1. stay calm in frustrating situations
2. eat out a max of 2 times a week
3. give people answers when they ask for them, not whenever i feel like giving them
4. be humble
5. remember... "The sky is blue, the ocean is blue, these things are blue, but I am not blue."
and my long term goals ARE....
1. respect myself like i would want them to respect me
2. respect my friends and family like they deserve to be respected
...am i making any sense?