Nobody reads this anyway.
Since when do I have feelings?
Let me elaborate: Starting this summer, I had become so good at differentiating sex from love or any other L words such as like or loneliness. Having sex with someone did not infer any feelings were involved besides physically feeling good.
Now, all of a sudden, I'm sitting here thinking about how I'm lonely and how I don't want sex so much as some other S words like safety and security and someone to come home to and how this is so not the girl I strive to be.
Fuck.
Let me elaborate: Starting this summer, I had become so good at differentiating sex from love or any other L words such as like or loneliness. Having sex with someone did not infer any feelings were involved besides physically feeling good.
Now, all of a sudden, I'm sitting here thinking about how I'm lonely and how I don't want sex so much as some other S words like safety and security and someone to come home to and how this is so not the girl I strive to be.
Fuck.