Dedicated to Eea
I knew when I wrote that I wouldn't miss andrea and all of them or whatever I said it would hurt them. I didn't mean to hurt them so much, but that's what happens in life. YOu have to move on, and i believe if I up and left today, I would miss Andrea. I would miss her so much I don't even think words can describe it. And I don't know what I'm gonna do that year I'm alone, when she's graduated and I'm a senior. I do when she leaves and I'm still here. I do have friends in my own grade, but not ones who live across the street from me (except for Jade but that's only her father's house). Eea means a lot to me, and I will miss her no matter what happens. I believe this is what I wrote
" only said that so Andrea and all of them would feel missed. Don't get me wrong, I did miss Andrea and Steve, but I could have gone on without them. I love hanging out with them and talking to them, but I made new friends, and I also miss them. I bonded with those people for two straight weeks. There's something different about the people you see for 24/7 that differ from the people you only see at school."
I don't even know why I wrote the first line now, I really did miss Andrea and Steve, I don't know why I write those lines sometimes. i say them all the time meaning good intentions, and they always fuck up. hence i think I'm a bitch and estella. But I guess when I tried to put that I tried to justify my point that I was getting across, which I can't even remember, so that means it must have been a shitty point.
This is to you Andrea. I really did miss you guys. You, Steve, Caitlin, Ha, etc...I missed everyone, I even wrote a story about it and it's in the literary magizene we made there. I remember that I did miss you Andrea, cause I was laying in bed thinking that these people were my new family for two weeks, and I have to deal with them. But I remember thinking that not one of them reminded me of you, that you were so unique and so special to me that you couldn't be replaced. I know I can't explain why I said that earlier, I don't even understand it myself sometimes. I think that's why my relationships end so quickly lol. Well, I know that if I apologize over and over again it might not heal the wound that I gave you, but I want you to know eea, I might not miss some people, I might hate some people, but I will always miss you when I'm away and I'll always love you (in a non perverted way). I don't want what happened between me and Caitlin to happen to us.
To recap, I did miss everyone away, I missed Andrea the most, I don't know why I wrote that thing earlier, it was shitty of me and I told you guys I could be a bitch, and forgive me eea, I'm sorry *insert puppy dog eyes here* lol.
" only said that so Andrea and all of them would feel missed. Don't get me wrong, I did miss Andrea and Steve, but I could have gone on without them. I love hanging out with them and talking to them, but I made new friends, and I also miss them. I bonded with those people for two straight weeks. There's something different about the people you see for 24/7 that differ from the people you only see at school."
I don't even know why I wrote the first line now, I really did miss Andrea and Steve, I don't know why I write those lines sometimes. i say them all the time meaning good intentions, and they always fuck up. hence i think I'm a bitch and estella. But I guess when I tried to put that I tried to justify my point that I was getting across, which I can't even remember, so that means it must have been a shitty point.
This is to you Andrea. I really did miss you guys. You, Steve, Caitlin, Ha, etc...I missed everyone, I even wrote a story about it and it's in the literary magizene we made there. I remember that I did miss you Andrea, cause I was laying in bed thinking that these people were my new family for two weeks, and I have to deal with them. But I remember thinking that not one of them reminded me of you, that you were so unique and so special to me that you couldn't be replaced. I know I can't explain why I said that earlier, I don't even understand it myself sometimes. I think that's why my relationships end so quickly lol. Well, I know that if I apologize over and over again it might not heal the wound that I gave you, but I want you to know eea, I might not miss some people, I might hate some people, but I will always miss you when I'm away and I'll always love you (in a non perverted way). I don't want what happened between me and Caitlin to happen to us.
To recap, I did miss everyone away, I missed Andrea the most, I don't know why I wrote that thing earlier, it was shitty of me and I told you guys I could be a bitch, and forgive me eea, I'm sorry *insert puppy dog eyes here* lol.