I want to move
This will be my last journal entry until I get back next saturday which will be fun... lol. Anyways, I'm going RVing and I don't really want to anymore. I wanted to yesterday until my brother started being a bitch about stuff. I went downstairs last night and started watching the last part of I Love The 90's, when my dad told me to tell allie who was outside with Tony to hurry up. So I went to allie and said dad wants you inside, and she said "tell dad to fuck himself" and flipped me off. Now, when I told dad that, danny started yelling at me, he said "allie didn't say that, she doesn't use volgar language like you." I didn't say anything I just looked at dad with an expression "see what he does to me" and my dad gave the same expression back. I think dad is on my side for this vacation. Then, I went upstairs because I wanted to fucking kill my brother so badly, I heard allie come in. And Danny was like "did you tell dad to fuck himself?" and she denied it of course (because she was afraid that she would not see Tony for the rest of her life). I didn't care, but I'm not interacting with any one of those two this whole vacation. I'm reading the whole time. I need to get my summer reading done.
I realized something last night while I was lying in bed. I want to move. And as soon as that thought came up, the lights went out. Maybe it was a sign?? The power didn't go out cause I could still hear the TV downstairs. When I reached for my cell, the lights came back on. But anyways, I want to move. When I came across this idea, I texted andrea saying that I wanted to move. But anyways, before I trail off, I was thinking last night, there's nothing here for me. I had a taste of life outside of New Jersey and I loved it. I had a taste of college and it was amazing! I had a taste of other people and it was the greatest experiance of my life. I realized that I have been staring at the same people for teh past hundred years and they're getting old. I wasn't excited coming back. I only said that so Andrea and all of them would feel missed. Don't get me wrong, I did miss Andrea and Steve, but I could have gone on without them. I love hanging out with them and talking to them, but I made new friends, and I also miss them. I bonded with those people for two straight weeks. There's something different about the people you see for 24/7 that differ from the people you only see at school. But anyways, there's nothing here for me. I've seen every guy so there's no love interest, I've met almost everyone, and there's nothing new I haven't found here. I know when I say I want to move, people's stomach turn because they're either my best friends or they know me so well and they care for me. I do care for everyone out there, but it's getting old. I want a new life, starting over again is a struggle but it gives you so much joy to meet new people. I guess I'm a wander, I'll be traveling from town to town never settling down. I'm a writer, I'm allowed to do travel around lol. But anyways, I've seen everything over and over again, things are getting old. And if you're thinking that I'm running away from my problems, what problems?? I have no problems here. The people are nice, the town is kinda nice, and myfamily doesn't abuse me. There's no real reason to leave, but it's getting old. I wish all of you that find it difficult to understand why think about what I've said. If you only understood where I was coming from. Once you get the taste of college life, you'll understand.
I realized something last night while I was lying in bed. I want to move. And as soon as that thought came up, the lights went out. Maybe it was a sign?? The power didn't go out cause I could still hear the TV downstairs. When I reached for my cell, the lights came back on. But anyways, I want to move. When I came across this idea, I texted andrea saying that I wanted to move. But anyways, before I trail off, I was thinking last night, there's nothing here for me. I had a taste of life outside of New Jersey and I loved it. I had a taste of college and it was amazing! I had a taste of other people and it was the greatest experiance of my life. I realized that I have been staring at the same people for teh past hundred years and they're getting old. I wasn't excited coming back. I only said that so Andrea and all of them would feel missed. Don't get me wrong, I did miss Andrea and Steve, but I could have gone on without them. I love hanging out with them and talking to them, but I made new friends, and I also miss them. I bonded with those people for two straight weeks. There's something different about the people you see for 24/7 that differ from the people you only see at school. But anyways, there's nothing here for me. I've seen every guy so there's no love interest, I've met almost everyone, and there's nothing new I haven't found here. I know when I say I want to move, people's stomach turn because they're either my best friends or they know me so well and they care for me. I do care for everyone out there, but it's getting old. I want a new life, starting over again is a struggle but it gives you so much joy to meet new people. I guess I'm a wander, I'll be traveling from town to town never settling down. I'm a writer, I'm allowed to do travel around lol. But anyways, I've seen everything over and over again, things are getting old. And if you're thinking that I'm running away from my problems, what problems?? I have no problems here. The people are nice, the town is kinda nice, and myfamily doesn't abuse me. There's no real reason to leave, but it's getting old. I wish all of you that find it difficult to understand why think about what I've said. If you only understood where I was coming from. Once you get the taste of college life, you'll understand.