jeff bs
ive been nervous all day. i turned my cell off this morning and i missed jeffs phone call. the one thats supposed to tell me where he stands through all of this. i have no idea what hes going to say but it doesnt sound good. all he said was that unfortunately i didnt answer the phone, he got my letter, and he thinks we need to talk. he said he would call me back. he didnt sound good. his actual words didnt give anything away. but i dont think its going to go in my favor because his "we need to talk" didnt sound like a good thing. people pray for me please. i love him so much. it has nothing to do with our child. i really messed up. all of my communication issues really got in the way. i know how to fix it, but the thing is he has to want to be with me or he has to want to try again. what if he doesnt have another try left in him? please, just pray for me. through all of this, i want him to be happy. so if he says that he doesnt want to try again, i will have to hide all my feelings from him and be a single mom. i will have to be civil to him for the rest of my life due to our child, its going to hurt so bad. love hurts so bad. im so afraid. i know there are others out there, but he felt like he was the one for me. he loved me no like nobody else. he brought every emotion out of me. he made me feel beautiful. i dont think i can find that with anyone else. i think i can spend the rest of my life trying but it wont come close.
i know i can make it without him, i just want one more chance with him. it cant be over now. our problems werent big enough for us to be over. there was no cheating, no lieing, only lack of good communication. i feel like knives are being shoved into my heart and my stomach. i will feel better after he talks to me again. i dont know when he will call me back. he may not even call me back today.
please please pray for me.
ps. if jeff says we are over in his eyes, i am really going to need help staying above the water so i dont dround. peach i really wish you were here now. i need you so bad right now. i love you.
i know i can make it without him, i just want one more chance with him. it cant be over now. our problems werent big enough for us to be over. there was no cheating, no lieing, only lack of good communication. i feel like knives are being shoved into my heart and my stomach. i will feel better after he talks to me again. i dont know when he will call me back. he may not even call me back today.
please please pray for me.
ps. if jeff says we are over in his eyes, i am really going to need help staying above the water so i dont dround. peach i really wish you were here now. i need you so bad right now. i love you.