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I don't think the "crush" is going to pan out. Like it's a big surprise to me that it's not. Please. It's me. I don't know. I guess the victory here is that I can feel again. Like, I met him and I felt like the switch was turned back on inside me. I suddenly felt things that I hadn't felt in over 4 months. So now at least I know that I can feel something for a guy again, and that's one good thing. My ability to feel isn't completely dead. I don't know what I wanted, though. I don't know if I wanted a relationship or just dating or random play or friendship. It's so complicated. I don't know what I want at all. At least I can feel again, and that's my victory.
My body has rebelled against ramen. I've been eating so much of it lately because I'm so damn poor that I threw it all up yesterday. That was just delightful. I need to find something else that's cheap and I can cook and doesn't make me fat.....although ramen's a toss up on the fatness. Maybe I'll eat a lot of hard boiled eggs. any suggestions?
The Zoo tomorrow for Ali's early birthday celebration. So excited to go there and see her and the other girls and party it up for the night. God I miss it there.
ok, time to go run around. I can't go to the library today because I lost my ID and I'm too lazy to get a new one today. I'd have to do something to myself instead of looking like a bum. Gotta drop off my new schedule to work. Study contracts and civ pro at Barnes and Noble. Go to Walgreen's to get my pills/print up some photos. GYM. what an exciting day.
this song's in my head...keep playing it over and over
Lovely, you're always lovely
A vision
You were the one
Now I am stuck inside a memory
You forgot about our destiny
You buried me
Didn't you?
Didn't you?
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
You're always floating
A vapor
That I couldn't see
Here I am stuck inside a yesterday
Everything has given way
You fell from me
Didn't you?
Didn't you?
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drown in love and memories
Maybe I am a crowded mind
I watch your eyes glaze over
Stared down at the floor
You were amazing to me
I was amazing to you
But here we go again
Didn't you
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drown in love and memories
My body has rebelled against ramen. I've been eating so much of it lately because I'm so damn poor that I threw it all up yesterday. That was just delightful. I need to find something else that's cheap and I can cook and doesn't make me fat.....although ramen's a toss up on the fatness. Maybe I'll eat a lot of hard boiled eggs. any suggestions?
The Zoo tomorrow for Ali's early birthday celebration. So excited to go there and see her and the other girls and party it up for the night. God I miss it there.
ok, time to go run around. I can't go to the library today because I lost my ID and I'm too lazy to get a new one today. I'd have to do something to myself instead of looking like a bum. Gotta drop off my new schedule to work. Study contracts and civ pro at Barnes and Noble. Go to Walgreen's to get my pills/print up some photos. GYM. what an exciting day.
this song's in my head...keep playing it over and over
Lovely, you're always lovely
A vision
You were the one
Now I am stuck inside a memory
You forgot about our destiny
You buried me
Didn't you?
Didn't you?
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
You're always floating
A vapor
That I couldn't see
Here I am stuck inside a yesterday
Everything has given way
You fell from me
Didn't you?
Didn't you?
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drown in love and memories
Maybe I am a crowded mind
I watch your eyes glaze over
Stared down at the floor
You were amazing to me
I was amazing to you
But here we go again
Didn't you
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drown in love and memories