do I suck at life?
you know, I am starting to think that I just plain suck at life. I fucked up my first semester of law school. Though many of it is my fault for slacking off for 8 weeks, I place a considerable amount of blame on three particular people, and yes we all know who they are. I am just so angry at them for everything that happened. Angry at myself for being suck a loser. Disillusioned with law school. Losing faith. I just tried *so* hard the last 6-7 weeks of school, and I feel as though all my hard efforts were for nothing. Absolutely nothing. I called my mother when I got the results and spent 30 minutes positively sobbing on the phone with her. I should have dropped a class last semester, gone down to 9. It would have made things easier. I did that for this semester, about 20 minutes ago. I think it would be better for me to focus on doing better with just the 9. I just need to contine to keep myself together.
the sad thing is, I thought I almost had myself together, and then this and I fall apart again. Does God hate me or something? Seriously.
I think I am going to take the foreign service exam now. Just to do it. because maybe law school isn't something that I should be doing. ......
the sad thing is, I thought I almost had myself together, and then this and I fall apart again. Does God hate me or something? Seriously.
I think I am going to take the foreign service exam now. Just to do it. because maybe law school isn't something that I should be doing. ......