tired
I am so tired. I've gotten up at 10 to 6 every day so far this week to go to the library to do work with Trang and Phil. Talked to Prof. Buttrey about my intro exam, and she wants me to bring in my outlines totally up to date and a bunch of practice exams. I've been kicking my ass to do these. getting stressed. great.
decided that I should not go to K-zoo for Western/Central. I really want to; I've been looking forward to going. I have so much work to do, which I could kick ass later and do it, but the biggest thing is this: I don't want to risk running into Doug and his new woman. I don't know how I'll react to it. I don't know what he might say and what she may say or do. I don't know if she would be catty and say shit to me or kiss him in front of me or what. I don't want to chance it. It's been a good two weeks for me, and it's not worth throwing it all down the drain. I have too much coming up the next couple weeks. I just can't do it. Plus, I haven't heard from any of my Kzoo people, so it's not like they're planning on me coming or want me to come. *sigh*
haven't heard from Brad. didn't expect to.
Christopher William has a volleyball tournament at MSU this weekend. I guess he's staying with me now. at least I can bond with the one guy who loves me and can tell me that he does.
decided that I should not go to K-zoo for Western/Central. I really want to; I've been looking forward to going. I have so much work to do, which I could kick ass later and do it, but the biggest thing is this: I don't want to risk running into Doug and his new woman. I don't know how I'll react to it. I don't know what he might say and what she may say or do. I don't know if she would be catty and say shit to me or kiss him in front of me or what. I don't want to chance it. It's been a good two weeks for me, and it's not worth throwing it all down the drain. I have too much coming up the next couple weeks. I just can't do it. Plus, I haven't heard from any of my Kzoo people, so it's not like they're planning on me coming or want me to come. *sigh*
haven't heard from Brad. didn't expect to.
Christopher William has a volleyball tournament at MSU this weekend. I guess he's staying with me now. at least I can bond with the one guy who loves me and can tell me that he does.