Bored
Well i haven't written in this in forever and there is so alot to be said but i will keep it short.....First off I wanna say Thank You to Ashlee Y for doing my background i fin love it....I love you!!! So anyways Luke and I were dating for awhile and then last wed i couldn't take it anymore so i ended wit him and he said he didn't want our friendship to be ruined but to bad he ruined it himself so i guess it sucks to be him....I think i fell for him though and that sucks big time and i can't take it so f him he is a waste of time anymore...Before i start to cry cuz it upsets me still I will tell you other stuff...Jesse left i am upset bout that i miss her so much...I miss talkin to her and i wish i could write to her but i don't know what to write my mind just goes blank when i try...What do u write to someone that is in training?? Oh i miss her so much and i just wanna cry thinkin bout her sometimes she was a great friend...I miss you Jesse cant wait till u come home!!!! So I've seen Rob and i talked to him i wanna hang out wit him again i miss that kid....He changed so much compared to the other asshole of his friend or should i say ex friend...Ashley G and i are talkin again i missed her as a friend so is an amazing girl i care for her so much and I am so happy we talk more now... She's been there for me alot and i love her for that....But yeah ummm Kate and I are gettin close again and i can trust her and i hope she can trust me again i missed her so much we were so close through all highschool and then shit happened and we split apart but now i am happy we are becoming close again she is one of my best friends....Umm i don't know what to write now....I had it all planned out and now its just a blank line to me....Oh its almost been two years since i met .... and it upsets me alittle...Cuz that person meant so much to me....We don't even talk anymore and it hurts when i start thinking bout it....But what can u do life goes on and I've grown up to realize things...I have a crush on somebody and i don't know how to tell them and i don't know if i want to cuz it would be weird i think but what can you do..So yeah any advice please don't be afraid to tell me i would love to hear it....But now i am off to bed so i can wake up early tomorrow so goodnight everybody....