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last night i found out that my grandmother is about to die. the doctor said that he didnt understand why she wasnt dead yet, her skin is breaking down, she can only take in a little bit of food through a feeding tube, she has bruses all over her for no reason, her leg is stuck in a certain position and the doctors are scared that if they move it then it might break and she will be in even more pain. It made me break down crying. i havent done that over her since she became ill with alzheimiers(sp). Ever since she had this horrible disease she has always called me kaite-kate, she has called me that since i was born. she has forgotten everything even the fact that i am her grandchild but yesterday was the first day that she forgot that i was katie kate. it made me relize that she was going to die and even when i told her good bye she wouldnt even know that it was her katie kate.and she has forgotten how much her katie kate loves her and she would never relize that i do.....