sos
i am so mad. i dont understand people. i dont see why they do the things they do. why are we stuck in this motion of lying and scheming. dont you see how your actions portray you? do you not see what i see? why am i the only one who sees this? why do i feel like the only one who cares? you are so redundant. all of your actions are so typical of you. i dont even know you on a personal level, but from what you are showing me, i think i hate you. i use "hate" because i find myself obsessing over your every move, trying to disect it and understand if your are out for me, or if you are just an idiot or im insane. im lost in here, but nobody else sees what i am seeing. maybe your that good or maybe they dont care. why? what the hell am i supposed to do? im thinking im done with this game. i want out and i want to quit, i dont want another turn. it SHOULDN'T be like this. i dont want to feel like this. i need to figure myself out here. why am i letting you and all this crap affect me. maybe there has always been a problem but you just gave me the chance to see? there has to be someone who understands what this feels like. im not seeing things that aren't there. am i?