a kiss is just a kiss
that thing from eternal sunshine of the spotless mind... i wish i could do it. not only with people but with events to. i was reading through some stuff that i should'nt have been and i was reminded of the way things use to be. now its eight o'clock in the morning and i feel sick. i hate this feeling. its not guilt, but more like uncertainty and the feeling of being alone. basically i feel as though my worst fear is throwing up inside my stomach. i cant go back to sleep and i dont know what to do. i just know that i am uncomfortable and i am angry. i suppose i really should not be angry because it is in the past but that is the tricky thing, the past is never really gone. just when you think everything is ok... it tricks you into thinking about stuff you have tried so hard to lock away. then it wakes you early in the morning and makes you want to puke.