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"I feel like having someone to watch movies with, drink coffee outside with, go grocery shopping with, stay in bed all day with, take a midnight walk with, listen to music with, play Monopoly with, talk about nothing with, drive to no particular destination with, lay in bed reading a book with." - Me
Adam in response: Katie May, it sounds like you want a boyfriend.
Do I?
Sure I want a boyfriend sometimes. I'm a girl after all. But I always know that seconds later I'll snap back to reality where relationships/committment scares me.
Then again, I've never openly expressed what I want, and exactly what I want like that. WIthout even thinking about what I was doing.
Maybe I am ready. I am growing up, so maybe it's starting to seem less scary.
I mean, don't I deserve to have that? To know what it's like when a guy makes love to me because it's me, not some random girl? To have someone that loves me and that I love back? Everything I mentioned before?
And then part of me goes back to reality: It feels like something that is so impossible for me to have.
The worst part is that I don't know if it's because that's just how it is or if it's because that's how I want it to be.