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Have you ever been so confused that you don't really know what was going on? That's how I've been feeling lately. I can never tell what anyone is thinking and that's not normal for me. I don't know. My parents are acting funny about thing lately. I don't know what going on with Suzi and Sam and all them. It's really weird.
Meanwhile, Brooke and I have been talking more in the car lately. I miss being close with her. Sometimes it feels like our lifelong friendship is falling apart. But I know deep down inside she'll always be my sister and I love her so much! I hope she knows that too!
I miss my Grandpa. Sunday was the 10 year anniversary. I didn't cry, which was good. But I miss him so much. We took my grandma out for lunch after church and all she talked about was Bud (my grandpa) and Jenny (my cousin). She didn't even really ask what has been happening with any of us. It was hard sitting 5 at a table for 6. I miss my paps so much. I wish he was here again. I miss feeling excited to go there. I miss our early morning donut trips. I miss hearing him sing. I miss him telling me all about flying in his planes and him teaching me pool and chess and golf. I miss my paps. I wish he could come back again. When I miss him, I miss my gramps too, and then I get lonely. More lonely than I already am. I just wish I knew what I was going to end up as. Whatever it is, I just hope that it is something they'd want me to be. I don't care what anyone else thinks. I just want to make them proud.
Meanwhile, Brooke and I have been talking more in the car lately. I miss being close with her. Sometimes it feels like our lifelong friendship is falling apart. But I know deep down inside she'll always be my sister and I love her so much! I hope she knows that too!
I miss my Grandpa. Sunday was the 10 year anniversary. I didn't cry, which was good. But I miss him so much. We took my grandma out for lunch after church and all she talked about was Bud (my grandpa) and Jenny (my cousin). She didn't even really ask what has been happening with any of us. It was hard sitting 5 at a table for 6. I miss my paps so much. I wish he was here again. I miss feeling excited to go there. I miss our early morning donut trips. I miss hearing him sing. I miss him telling me all about flying in his planes and him teaching me pool and chess and golf. I miss my paps. I wish he could come back again. When I miss him, I miss my gramps too, and then I get lonely. More lonely than I already am. I just wish I knew what I was going to end up as. Whatever it is, I just hope that it is something they'd want me to be. I don't care what anyone else thinks. I just want to make them proud.