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o my gosh last night was the best night of my life...i have never been happier ever but god what am i doing... i dunno all i can say was wow. i got to do so many things ive been wanting to do like drive with the windows down at night and walk through the woods seriously i love hanging out with those boys so much.then today i had my saturday and i was so pissed i couldnt sleep last night so i woke up at three and stayed up till 6 to take a shower then went to my saturday. it was so fun actually me jessica and stuart...good times, then right afterwards i was so happy i walked out of my detention and ryan was out there he was suppose to go but slept in haha but yeha i was so happy he was there. then we went to antonios and woke him up. today was such a depressing day i havent felt this depressed ever i dont think. i have so many things on my mind i dont know what to think about o my gosh and i missed so many things i wasnt event hinknig about today liek some tailgate party or soemthing for core and then this bonfire. god ugh.ryans cat died today i was so sad. i felt so bad and then when we went to this shop there was this bumber sticker that said liek ooo lsot your cat check under my tires and ryan saw it when me and antonio were trying to hide it. i didnt feel good all day i felt so bad like a party pooper. we went back to antonios and i liek didnt tlak at all i had some fun tho watching the game channel with donovan hahah but then the rest of the time i jsut sat there or would fall asleep then be woken up. i was so depressed to come home but i knew id be even more depressed if i stayed there any longer... god i dotn know whats wrong with me. its so true exactly god what everyones been tlaknig about seriously liek me and donovan were in the car and hes liek once everything starts getting good it jsut gets bad... and it so true. i wish my brain would jsut work out i dont know what im doing, someone please help me...