Problems
So i am beginning to doubt this thing i have.
We talk all the time, but nothig that really means anything and when we do, he has to go off and help some customers. I don't know if this is a real thing or if it's out of conveinence, or fear. I hate being alone and i try to avoid it, and with Kevin leaving the way he did and the residual shit that happened afterwards i think i am afraid to feel so low again. i've dealt with all kinds of sadness, but it must be my least favorite. Does that make me a bad person?
So do i ask him and risk rejection, or do i not mention it and let it fester. I know i have to confront it, but for once i would like to be happy for a little while. Especially now with my non direction. I just wish so much that i could love someone and for them to love me back like he did once. Is that even possible? I wish i could get a straight answer out of him, and if that's possible, will it be anything but a rejection?
We talk all the time, but nothig that really means anything and when we do, he has to go off and help some customers. I don't know if this is a real thing or if it's out of conveinence, or fear. I hate being alone and i try to avoid it, and with Kevin leaving the way he did and the residual shit that happened afterwards i think i am afraid to feel so low again. i've dealt with all kinds of sadness, but it must be my least favorite. Does that make me a bad person?
So do i ask him and risk rejection, or do i not mention it and let it fester. I know i have to confront it, but for once i would like to be happy for a little while. Especially now with my non direction. I just wish so much that i could love someone and for them to love me back like he did once. Is that even possible? I wish i could get a straight answer out of him, and if that's possible, will it be anything but a rejection?