this sucks.
friday was dallas's 20th bday. fun for him but he thinks he's old now that he's not a teen.
saturday, modeling class was fun. we did commercials and i realized how fat i look on camera and how i should never open my mouth to speak again.
then me and the sis's went to take a professional pic for mom for mommy's day. and then we ate at applebee's and it always amazes me how little i see all of my sisters together, but they are my life. i wouldn't be anywhere w/o them.
then me and carm watched amittyville horror...scary scary
i spent the night with dallas.
sunday i worked, threw up 4 different times. i'm so sick and it sucks. the only reason i threw up was b/c i was coughing so bad that i couldn't breath. ending result=my stomach in a trash can.
what also sucks is that i'm the only person that i know that can still be hungry when they're sick. my only chance to lose a few pounds and i prolly end up gaining instead.
ayla called me today. and i realized that lately when my phone rings "i love the way you move" by outkast (ayla's ringtone) i don't really wanna answer it. the only reason she called me today while she was in weight training was to get the combination for my locker so that she could use my straightener. no questions like why didn't you go to school today, are you feeling okay? i didn't realize how much it bothered me til about 2 seconds ago when i started crying. i've also realized that as much fun as it CAN be for me and ayla to be together 24/7. we NEED our own cars for our sanity and to keep our friendship. her can has been broken since we got back from spring break (march 26th) so she's had to ride w/ me for over a month now and we practically hate each other. yea we act like we don't but she only acts like it so that she can get what she wants. i only act like it b/c if we ever did get in a really big fight and didn't talk, it would make my life complete and absolute hell, b/c she's almost the only friend i have. i've got beth but just barely...and her and ayla are closer anyways. i have carm too but we're just not the same as me and ayla, which i really hate that cuz i love carm to death. me and ayla have 2 classes together and that would be half of my day that i would have to sit and watch her hate me. and i would sit there hating me too. life really sucks sometimes.
today really fucking sucks.
saturday, modeling class was fun. we did commercials and i realized how fat i look on camera and how i should never open my mouth to speak again.
then me and the sis's went to take a professional pic for mom for mommy's day. and then we ate at applebee's and it always amazes me how little i see all of my sisters together, but they are my life. i wouldn't be anywhere w/o them.
then me and carm watched amittyville horror...scary scary
i spent the night with dallas.
sunday i worked, threw up 4 different times. i'm so sick and it sucks. the only reason i threw up was b/c i was coughing so bad that i couldn't breath. ending result=my stomach in a trash can.
what also sucks is that i'm the only person that i know that can still be hungry when they're sick. my only chance to lose a few pounds and i prolly end up gaining instead.
ayla called me today. and i realized that lately when my phone rings "i love the way you move" by outkast (ayla's ringtone) i don't really wanna answer it. the only reason she called me today while she was in weight training was to get the combination for my locker so that she could use my straightener. no questions like why didn't you go to school today, are you feeling okay? i didn't realize how much it bothered me til about 2 seconds ago when i started crying. i've also realized that as much fun as it CAN be for me and ayla to be together 24/7. we NEED our own cars for our sanity and to keep our friendship. her can has been broken since we got back from spring break (march 26th) so she's had to ride w/ me for over a month now and we practically hate each other. yea we act like we don't but she only acts like it so that she can get what she wants. i only act like it b/c if we ever did get in a really big fight and didn't talk, it would make my life complete and absolute hell, b/c she's almost the only friend i have. i've got beth but just barely...and her and ayla are closer anyways. i have carm too but we're just not the same as me and ayla, which i really hate that cuz i love carm to death. me and ayla have 2 classes together and that would be half of my day that i would have to sit and watch her hate me. and i would sit there hating me too. life really sucks sometimes.
today really fucking sucks.