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I just realized something.. People say they know themselves. Truthfully no one really knows themselves, they need people to improvise. Yes, you may think you know yourself but you always get other peoples' opinions on it, it may not be right but it still means something and has some meaning to it even if it is just something to make you feel bad.
No one really knows anyone, you think you know a lot of your friends, right? Well, truthfully they've done a lot of shit you don't know about. They say that they have told you everything in their life and they know everything about you. BULLSHIT. I'm sure everyone has heard that saying of the teacher teaches you everything they know, nope sorry, you can't possibly teach someone everything you know. Scientific fact.
A lot of people are hypocritical, yeah I am, I'll admit that. I don't like that I am, but yea I am. Most of the time I'll make the wrong decision, it might not be the right one but I feel that it is the right one, of course most of the time it is wrong but it gets us where we are today. I lie to get myself out of things, everyone does, even if they say they don't, however, if I feel I'm doing something completely wrong and feel completely guilty for it then yea I'll admit it when I'm wrong. However, to my friends, I don't like lying to them, that is just fucked up, yeah you say you just lied to get yourself out of something little, fuck you and admit when you're wrong. I've done some fucked up shit in my life, might not be big, but some fucked up shit and I'm not proud of it I just can't stand to be completely caught up in the whole lying situation. No one's perfect, yeah I lie so what get over it.
Another thing, I don't like being the way I am, who does? I mean yeah, you're ugly so what, get over it. You don't have nice clothes, get over it. People make fun of you, stick up for yourself and do something about it. The world is full of bullshit, fucked up people, and just shit that doesn't even make sense. However, make the best of it and if people can't see where you're coming from and judge you for it and saying shit like ohh you're gay, you're gross bla bla bla who cares, stick up for yourself or just live with it and don't make a big deal about it. People are obnoxious and abominable so fuck em'.
I am not saying any of this to be "emo" or a bitch, I am saying this because it is the truth, I am in a okay mood right now, not sad, not mad just realizing some things. I want to live life to it's full extent and if that means making the "wrong" decisions, I'll do it, but I feel that they are right.