Mar 27, 2005 14:34
So this morning I wrote a big long entry and then I got this virus thingy via MSN messenger, and the whole thing was deleted. If you get something on Messenger that says, quick, check out this picture and gives a link, don't open it.
Basically, the entry was about how I want to fall in love. I desperately, desperately want to fall in love, but I don't want to hurt people. And that I'm feeling disconnected from other people. And cold towards relationships, because I never get myself involved emotionally. But I desperately want to, and think that I need to. Maybe I am scared. Or maybe it's just not natural to me. Anyway, I wrote a big long entry about it, and about Jack that was deleted. OH WELL. Too bad for you all. I really wonder who reads this journal. If you think that I don't know you read it, I would be really interested if you left a comment.
Home was really refreshing, and I want to go back. It was really nice to see Chris and Nate. It got me kind of excited about the summer.
Our road trip with Eli was so much fun. He is such a fun boy, and is so positive. I just don't know if anything negative ever came out of that boys mouth. Hopefully I can hang out with him this summer as well, if he isn't busy being awesome with more cooler kids from Bellingham. He also has a kick-ass cozy one-room cabin right on the Skykomish river, right next to mt. Index. And i invited myself there and he seemed excited enough so...yeah, hopefully I have made a new friend.
I think Maeve may be coming sometime this week or next week. My grandma is getting eye surgery, and she has to be back to take care of her then, so she'll probably be coming to Missoula pretty soon. She looked really good. She's a pretty girl. I really love her.
Okey-dokey. I need to do some serious crackage on my homework.
Also, Garden State is a pretty good movie. It surprised me.
And I have a crush on someone who works at the desk here. Eeeek. Not really, but kind of a little bit. It will always just be a tiny little crush.
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