day of silence
This is something I've always wanted to do, but I've never had ample opportunity, nor the motivation: be silent for 24 hours. I think tomorrow is a good day to do it because I only have 1 class, none of the roommates are here, and I don't have any work/activities planned.
I'm not sure you realize how hard it is for me to be quiet for any length of time. I know I'm alone a lot, but I am forever craving human contact, whether it be online forums, e-mail, the phone, harrassing Savannah, or just chatting it up on IM or Skype.
I have been very confused, lately. I am unhappy, but not in a "depressed" way, exactly. True, more thinking time is perhaps the last thing I need, but on the other hand, it might help to have 24 hours devoid of human contact. I think I build my self-image too much around what others think of me, so it will be interesting to see how I treat myself in their absence. I am very anxious to begin firming up some sort of stable self-concept. Maybe I will even bring myself to think of God, a bit. Maybe He will actually-finally-say something to me. Or maybe it will merely be the most torturous, unfulfilling 24 hours of my life.
And just for the record, I don't actually think I'll make it a full 24 hours. I will try my best, though. And I will let you know how it goes.
P.S. It starts at midnight.
I'm not sure you realize how hard it is for me to be quiet for any length of time. I know I'm alone a lot, but I am forever craving human contact, whether it be online forums, e-mail, the phone, harrassing Savannah, or just chatting it up on IM or Skype.
I have been very confused, lately. I am unhappy, but not in a "depressed" way, exactly. True, more thinking time is perhaps the last thing I need, but on the other hand, it might help to have 24 hours devoid of human contact. I think I build my self-image too much around what others think of me, so it will be interesting to see how I treat myself in their absence. I am very anxious to begin firming up some sort of stable self-concept. Maybe I will even bring myself to think of God, a bit. Maybe He will actually-finally-say something to me. Or maybe it will merely be the most torturous, unfulfilling 24 hours of my life.
And just for the record, I don't actually think I'll make it a full 24 hours. I will try my best, though. And I will let you know how it goes.
P.S. It starts at midnight.