And you made us feel like sociopaths
(2am and she calls me cause I'm still awake )
(Can you help me unravel my latest mistake )
(I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.)
(Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes)
(Like they have any right at all to criticize )
(Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.)
(Cause you can't jump the track)
(We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table, )
(No one can find the rewind button girl )
(So just cradle your head in your hands.)
(And breathe, just breathe)
(Here in town you can tell he's been down for while )
(But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles )
(Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it )
(There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out )
(And these mistakes you've made )
(You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around )
(No one can find the rewind button now )
(Sing it if you understand...)
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WEEEELLL I had an interesting weekend! Thursday I went to Jakobs house and stayed there prtty late. He was packing for his departure :( haha it was very sad! He left friday morning and all weekend i just sat around my house and iSTAYED HOME! its kind of sad when you have a boyfirend and you end up like being dependant on them or something. not really, im not dependant but its just that hes the main person i hang out with and he always makes me happy when I am sad! So i just moped around and was like "uh...now what?" BUT this week I have found an alterntative to moping! ths week is weird because Jakob is gone and I dont have ballet! So what am i suposed to do with myself!?? I come home everyday and I either clean or go shopping! Monday i cleaned out my car ( a task...let me tell you!) Tuesday I cleaned my bathroom (very very clean now...I got all the little nooks!) and then went and bought sunglasses and underwear? i dont know. Today i am cleaning my room and tommorow im going to nordstrom. arent i smart!? Anyways...i feel like I am dealing with my patheticness (not a word but i like it) in a positive way. haha :)
here are some weekend pictures of what I resulted to due to lack of boyfriend. walmart? haha it was okay because i had so much fun!!! sad, but true.
and just kidding the link isnt working. pictures later. I want to kill myself i typed this damn thing twice and now its not even woking! of course.
BUT-here are some closing words, haha im so wise. BUT LISTEN! There is only one way for you to break the cycle, and you have todo it, I have given you so many oppurtunities to do that. I dont care about the lies. Why is the truth so hard? Until then- I think youre crazy. I would have been understanding, I have messed up before.I was synmpathetic to you instead of mad at you. But when the first thing out of your mouth is denial-why? Seriously...its out of hand. All I have ever done was loved you. Its starting to sink in that your i love yous and apologies and regrets were a part of the myth. You just gave me the permission I needed to be able to put my heart in other places fully. Free from something that never existed-who would have thought! But the door is always open I guess. My friendship is always on the table- but it has to be built on truth. Charm can only get you so far. Please consider it, I have faith in you. It could have been so much more than this