Aug 04, 2008 07:04
This is a public post, for what it's worth. A last resort of sorts in a journal I never use anymore really.
Hey Matt:
I called you yet again this morning about the car. I know it's parked on the street at NanandJayandJette's. I saw it there. Do they have the keys in case it needs to be moved? Is anyone moving it periodically? Starting it up at least?? Letting the enginge turn over at all? Cars don't stay functioning when you just let them sit as I'm sure just about anyone who's ever owned one knows.
Is anyone taking action so that it avoids further tickets? Having it parked on the street and NOT registered, as I've informed you several times now, is illegal. Tom will be liable for any further problems with that car until this situation is resloved, as he is now for your last ticket at a BART station over six months ago that you've failed to pay - you know, the one that's in collections in Tom's name right now?! The one I hand carried you back in very early 2008 so you could deal with it?!! I'm not telling you anything new here.
Could you please have the balls to respond to this issue??? I don't know if all my phone messages to you on the subject have gone unlistened to or not, but you really need to step up to the plate and DO something about this situation. Bust a move. Make the effort. Get off of your asshole.
I spoke to Tom about the car again this morning, we talk about it at least once a week. He's really, understandably, unhappy about the extra stress this is causing him. He doesn't want the car back. His viewpoint is that you paid for it (at least for a time period), it belongs to you. He just wants you to sign the papers, take the small steps needed, deal with your responsibilities. Release him from what he cannot effectively deal with without your cooperation. Stop holding him hostage over this with your inaction.
He's been nothing but kind to you. Your wedding at his house and all the work and money he put into it for you. The gift of the car that all you had to do was take over payments on. All the loans of the Expedition over the years any time you or Kim have ever needed it. You not specifically asking for his kindness does not negate the fact that he has been good to you.Why would you continue to do this to him?? WHY?
And don't say it's because he hasn't called you himself. You KNOW Tom...he feels awkward. I have been the one to deal with you in regard to this car from day one ever since you got it from us. The thin attempt to defend yourself with that point in the past was, in a word, LAME. I have gone to great lengths to try and get you to take care of this. The lack of a personal phone call from Tom is NOT any type of valid excuse...in fact, there IS no excuse. You've been fully informed every step of the way of what needs to be done. The level this has gotten to is shameful. That's right,in case you can't understand what I'm saying, you should be ashamed of yourself.
Kim tells me the transmission is shot, unless I misunderstood. Is that why you haven't taken care of your responsibilities going on 8 months now??? Are you planning to just let the Rodeo rot like your last vehicle? Leave it parked illegally just like last time until someone tows it away?? Not lift a finger because it isn't in your name and then just exclaim "and so it goes" with a wistful sigh??? Completely disregard the kindness Tom has shown you???? CONTINUE TO SHIT ON HIM IN THIS MANNER?????
I could possibly understand if you were doing this to me. Your dislike, or whatever name you want to give it, for me for various reasons real or perceived...but to CONTINUE to do this to Tom???
Unacceptable.
Do you really and truly believe in The Universe? In Karma? In Buddhism? or are those things just pretty concepts you enjoy spouting misunderstandings about? Your lack of concern for others, well, those that are seemingly unimportant to you, leads me to believe that you really don't understand Zen in the least. I can't help noticing that your life, or at least what you write about it in your blog, from my perspective, seems like a veil of delusion. Don't tell me that "Your perspective matters not," or whatever other crap you use to feebly fend off my words...You're being a real penis, and you know it. Your flaccidity is no excuse for someone as innocent as Tom continuing to suffer, in case you didn't notice. Make it stop.
"I am the owner of my karma .
I inherit my karma.
I am born of my karma.
I am related to my karma.
I live supported by my karma.
Whatever karma I create, whether good or evil, that I shall inherit."
The Buddha, Anguttara Nikaya V.57 - Upajjhatthana Sutta
And no, Matt, no one wrote this for me. My correspondence to you is always all me. The two times you and Kim helped me write a letter to my boss does NOT mean that I cannot or do not pen my own thoughts.
Thanks.
WAKE UP, Matt. Come out of your regression and lift the veil that prevents you from doing the right thing.
Do The Right Thing.