Jan 22, 2013 14:03
Life isn't. Sometimes is sucks giant green donkey balls.
My middle child's best friend turned 20 today. Alexis has been her best friend since they were 3 years old. She is as much my daughter as my own flesh and blood.
She's been having issues. It started with weak ankles. They is was a slight tremor, which is bad for an amazingly talented artist. Then it was other small things, clenching her teeth at night, etc.
Today, on her birthday, they ran her final diagnostic test. They had ruled out Parkinson's and MS. The diagnosis is far worse, she has Lou Gherig's.
I'm bawling and can't stop. I can't breath. My heart is shattered. I want to scream, smash things, topple large buildings. I'm not okay. Please don't tell me it's part of God's plan, that these things work out for the best, or any other stupid fucking platitude.
Please pray for her. I can't comprehend what she's feeling right now by getting a death sentence on your 20th birthday.