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damn this was not the best day for me to take my senior portaits. Chuck & i broke it off last night & wow... i don't even get it. it's like damn nothing's certain in this life. just a few days ago everything was fine & then sorrow caves in like a mother fucker. i don't know... it ain't over though, cuzz i ain't givin' up just yet. but yeahh i haven't gotten any sleep for 48 hours straight & on top of that i haven't had an appetite so i haven't consumed any food for the past 2 days. been crying like there's no tomorrow. i started crying while i was taking my senior portraits. got damn... i'm a hot mess. it's weird cuzz usually when i'm sad, i would eat myself to death but this kind of sorrow is different.. the kind where you can't sleep, eat, think, nor function like a normal person would. this shit is deep.... but i woulda never gotten through it without the help of my family&friends. everything's going to be alright.... that's what everybody says.... & i know everything will be alright some day but what about now? the hurt&pain exists now so whatever. all i need are the real ones & everything will go back on track because i have hope in US.