September 26,2009 has changed my life forever.
My friend Tyler Martin Kubilus has died at the age of 15. My friend, Amanda, called me on Saturday. She told me that he got into a quad accident and broke his neck. I cried. The soccer team had a soccer game four days after he died. They won that game by his number 3. Katie, Amanda and I cried through the whole game. He should've been out on the field. I went to his viewing with Katie and Jess. I cried once i got into the door. His school pictures were making cry horribly. Then when we got to see his body i just lost it. I had never cried so hard in my life. The thing that bathered me the most was that his face didn't look like him. He had so much makeup on and his hair was perfectly brushed which he would has have his hair in his face cause he loved his hair so much, he wouldn't let anyone touch his hair. He also looked so much older. I then went to hu his mother, father and his brothers who looks so much like him. I couldn't even look at him. I then went to hus the soccer team and we all cried there for three hours. I looked at his slideshow and i thought i could handle it but i just end up crying again cause he looked so happy in his pictures. The next day i went to his funeral. I was a little stronger to go to it. I cried when his cousin came up told all the good memories of him. But now i know his in such a better place now. It's been 3 weeks that his gone and i'm getting a liitle better everyday knowing that he's in a better place and he's happy. I don't understand why you have to go and leave us behind.I miss you like crazy and i don't know what to do without you Tyler. You were the best amazing friend. I can't even look at your brother without crying cause you two look so alike.My heart goes out to your family.I miss seeing your face every morning in school.But i know your in such a better place. One day i will be with you and when i see you again, i'm going to give you the biggest hug ever.I will miss you and your amazing hair you had my friend.We had such amazing memories and now they stopped and your gone forever. It is so hard on all of us to go to school and not have you close everyone's locker and mess up the girl's hair. I remember in 7th grade Art class you and i shared my ipod together and talked about the most stupidest things. Everyday i walk into school i always see that beautiful smile you have. That smile made me get through the day. In English you and Shimo would tell Billy to shut up cause he was so annoy. In Spanish class you would always make faces at me to make me smile. we played hide'n'seek in the mall together and now it all had to stop. I cry everyday for you and i know you don't want me too but it's so hard Cube. The day before you died you were so happy at the football game. You made me laugh. You lived such an amazing life Tyler and you will be missed greatly. I would have never guessed that you would be the first to die in our grade.I carry a picture of you in wallet to remember all the good memeories we had.I cry everytime I look at the picture.I listen your song called number three, never forget by The Devil Wears Prada,everyday. Your number was number 3 for the soccer team.When i went to your game 4 days after you died your team won the game by the score 3 to 0 and then i knew you were with us and you helped make those goals.I also had a dream about you and we were in school and all of us were crying cause you were dead and then you came up to me and said "I'm right here with you."I believe you were and still are with us.I miss and love you so much. May you rest in peace Tyler Martin Kubilus<33333333