3 words.... best summer ever
In exactly 2 and a half days I leave for college. Half of me is excited for what's about to come, but the other half wants to stay here forever.... because honestly, this has been the best summer of my life. Between all the parties, club events, and all those random nights that turned out awesome, I really wish it didn't have to come to an end. But if you think about it, part of the reason this summer was so amazing was because we all knew that every moment we spent together was precious. A lot of us live our lives like every day is our last.... I know I do. But this summer, I felt it twice as much. When it really IS your last time together, it's completely different. This was our most important summer, so why did it have to be the shortest? I still can't get over that. I know this was the last time I'll have so many of my friends with me at one time, and thinking about that makes it so hard to leave. I know we can't stay here forever, because we're meant to go out into the world and do bigger and better things.
We'll always stay friends and be there for each other no matter what, but I guess I'm just afraid we won't get to spend enough time together. It was hard enough to get everyone together this summer, and we were all in the same town for most of it. Next summer some of us won't even be living in Newtown. I know this is the end of an era, and we'll all branch out and go in our different directions.... where we're meant to be. Of course we'll see each other as much as possible, but it still won't be enough. There's a few of my friends that I feel like I really haven't seen enough of this summer. In reality, every year we'll be a little bit further apart (in distance), and there's not really anything we can do to stop that. My dream would to live with all my friends in one big house and be together forever. I really don't think I could ever get enough of my friends.... they're absolutely amazing. They're so much closer to me than my family, and they're really all I have. Of course there's going to be plenty of people to be friends with in college, but right now all I can think about is how close we are right now. Why did we all end up here, in this small town no one's heard of? There's a million different places we could have been, so why did we end up here... now? I think we were all meant to cross paths and become friends forever. We're so lucky to have each other, and I never want to let ANY of my friends go. Saying goodbye to my friends is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Very few things can make me cry, but somehow whenever one of my friends leaves for college I can't stop crying. I know it's time for us to move on, but it's still really sad. Each time someone leaves it makes this place a little less worth hanging around. I go on the 24th, which is probably the best time to go.... not so soon that I'll miss out on the fun, but not so late that i'm left here alone. It's tough to go out in the world alone, but it helps to know you have friends somewhere out there that know you better than yourself, who will be there for you till the end.
But about this summer..... maybe I should have gotten a job, and there's some other things I wish happened that didn't (camping trip, toronto party 2, picnic at the park). But at the same time, the summer was full of surprises that I wouldn't change for the world. Also, there's no other group of people I'd rather party with than the class of 05.... and hell did we party it up this summer! Now all that's left is memories, closer friendships, and some crazy pictures. I really did have the time of my life, and I want to thank my friends for helping make this summer awesome. Be who you are and never change, because I love you all exactly how you are. I'd never laughed so much, I'd never partied so much, and I'd never felt so alive until now.